getting a little depressed, dont know what it is

[anthonyd21]

im an 18 year old male, straight, going to college in about a month in a different state.

hi, my case might be a little different: i feel a little depressed. every time i think about kids around my age who are celebs or are really well known and successful i feel like nothing, i feel like they have such great lives while i dont. i love my life, dont get me wrong, i love everyone in it too. i just feel like i wish i could experience what theyre experiencing. for example, i used to compare about zac efron, then i would become somewhat "obsessed" with him. not in like a crazy fan kind of way or a creepy way, but more like "i want to be like him." then it was taylor lautner, now justin beiber. is it just become of jealousy? or is it something deeper?

anything would be great help.

[MMahon]

M4 is right about "stressful events such as starting college" being a trigger for anxiety and depression.  This is an exciting, yet stressfull time for everyone that goes thru it.
Keep in mind that there are very FEW kids your age that are 'celebs'!!  And, what you get from the media is pure fiction...what their lives are really like is totally different.  I admired certain 'celebs' too when I was your age.  Many of them were DEAD just a few years later.
Be who you are and seek out happiness wherever you can find it.  

[anthonyd21]

thank you so much, i never thought about those reasonings. i reallly do appreciate your response and it actually made me feel better.

[M4Y0U]

Stressful events such as starting college in a different state can be the trigger and usually are the trigger of mental illnesses such as depression.

In your case, it is normal to envy people at some point but keep in mind that there are people out there that are also envying you. Handicapped people, amputees, etc...

Fame is just something people envy because they don't have it and can't see not way of achieving it which can be profoundly disturbing for some people. It's not like fixing goals such as buying a house or a new car but it's something we have far less control on and what we don't control we seem to want to control.

On the other side, think that celebrity comes with a lot of bad aspects such as always being followed by the media and whatnot.

By having realistic goals that you can start to focus now I think it will be a relief from the jealousy you are experiencing. After those objectives are completed then maybe start thinking ''how can I be famous now?'' it all start with an idea and some luck!

I wish you good luck at college and get into something you love and being passionate about, no matter what it is, your help will be required for the future in that field.

M4