Sleep full panick attacks! Please help?!

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Long story short. I was put on ambien, Xanax, and citalipram around 8 years ago. Not educating myself and being in an unhappy marriage I was desperate. Did not do
My homework. Just took them! I have recently been tapering off. 6
Months of this. I am down to 10 mg of citalopram. My anxiety is off the charts. I honestly think I am in the middle of a nervous breakdown. The hardes thing is I am having complete panic attacks when I sleep. Wake up at least 4 times a night having change my gown and sheets. No sleep in 6 months wears you down. Trying herbal supplements but no help. Do NOT want go back on anti depressants. Tired of feeling drugged but my anxiety is unbearable especially not being able sleep. Any advice would be appreciated. Doctors all give different advice. We are all our best advocates and I am desperate