Don't know what to do

[kgill78]

I have been having these severe mood swings since mid-April.  Haven't really been depressed until today.  Have been having panic attacks since then too.  Which I haven't had in 10 years.  Trying to get my hormones checked but it is taking so long to get in to see a doctor and get lab results back.  I thought I was pregnant but I'm not.  I am hating staying home with my 5 and 3 year old boys right now.  I don't have the energy to do anything at all accept clean up after them and take care of them.  I am just so down right now I just want to run away, cut myself, die, all of the above.  I hate my life right now and I don't know how I am supposed to wait until Friday to see my internist.  Next Monday I have a psychiatrist appt. and Tuesday I have an ob/gyn appt.  How I am supposed to make it through until then.  My husband is desperate for me to be happyhappyhappy and I just can't even fake it.  

[kgill78]

My husband is completely baffled and hurt by my mood swings right now and my family is about 1000 miles away.  I'm in West Virginia and they are all in Oklahoma.  Thanks for the response though.  Still moody today, a little better, but just because I am trying so hard to be normal.  

[ILADVOCATE]

Moodswings tend to be cyclical by nature. Use the Mood Tracker here and give the results to the psychiatrist. Its good to follow up with the ob/gyn as well to rule that out and then the psychiatrist could determine how best to help you. If things get really bad go to a walk in clinic. All of these feelings are something that's ultimately treatable. If family members don't understand that NAMI friend and family groups are great for support and understanding and education or for more personal discussions seeing the psychiatrist together.