never truly happy....depressipn??

[zoey123456]

not 100% sure but I've taken tests and all of the say that I have a fourm of depression. I was just wondering if one monent people are kinda ok like not happy happy but normal I guess but still feel like there empty and not really enjoying themselfves.  If that is part of depression?

[AnnaSalCullen]

I get it totally. The other night I was on the phone with my boyfriend and after he hung up, and we had a nice conversation too, I just couldnt sleep and I cried from 11:00 p.m. to 1:00 a.m for reasons I simply am not aware of. When I was younger I used to talk to people about my feelings and they made me feel worse so i just stopped now even when I go to counselling and I'm telling the psychologist whats wrong I just feel non-chalant.

Dont let ur sadness ruin a great thing with ur fiance because thats what depression does it pushes those u love far away and then it gets worse because u feel alone. Could u write ur fiance letters? Each time u feel sad just write ur mood and share with him..thats my suggestion u could find other ways

[Bubulous]

Are you pregnant?  How far along are you?  If so congrats!!!

You can always come on here and open up, of course.  If you find someone to be understanding and compassionate send them a friend request and just message them to talk about your emotions if you don't feel comfortable putting them out there.  As the support may take a while sometimes on here I would definately try to help your fiance understand what is going on.  You can have no better support system than those who are intimately involved in your life.  Hope you find a lot of support here and feel better...

Good Luck

[zoey123456]

yeah I feel the same way as you at times when I'm alone. I find it hard at times to even talk to my fiance about what's wrong with me and that's only because I'm not totally 100% sure why I fell the way I do. Also everytime I'm in a depressed mood we seem to get into fights cuz he wants me to tell him what's wrong and talk about my feelings but I've never ever been able to tell anyone about my feels. I bottle it up which I know isn't a good thing but I've never really had anyone there for me while I was growing up that I could talk to that would be supportive and stuff and still now at 20 years of age I still don't really have anyone that I can talk to about what's truly wrong....well except this site

[AnnaSalCullen]

I really think so because thats the way I feel and I have seen a psychologist...I feel like Im just watching the days go by if u get what I mean. I live my life but sometimes it seems like everything is in a daze. I have moments where I'm ok I laugh and talk with others but soon as I'm alone its like there's a whole in my heart thats needs to be filled but I dont know how to do so :( There's no true contentment.

Let me know if its the same for u dear, please try and have a good day and dont forget to share.

[drray3001x]

Could very well be depression - you should see a professional who can evaluate the problem and then suggest a treatment to help.