Eating patterns have changed

[natalieedear]

Since the start of 2009 my eating patterns have completly changed, most days all i will eat is a couple of biscuits and thats about it, but other days (not many of these days) i will feel like im eating for Britain and eat loads, my friends call me anorexic but i really don't think i am. I have never ate breakfast, but now i've stopped eating lunch too, this doesnt mean im anorexic does it? please help me xx

[Warped_Reflections]

Nart, a day or two of no response is not something to worry about. If sounds like you have some issues of abandonment, maybe that is something you should talk about with a therapist.

Also it sounds like you are starting to get super dependent on us talking to you. That is NOT healthy. I went thru a phase like that where how I felt or what I did depended upon who I talked to online. It wasnt a good thing because I sometimes would end up harming myself because of what people said.

I am glad that you like to talk to us but I think you really need to try and find some real life friends. Friends on the internet are kind of ok but real life friends are much better. Plus real life friends can give you a lot of things online friends cant. You can hang out with real life friends and the only support we can give you is thru a bunch of words while a real life friend could give you support thru words and things like a hug.

I know that you are scared about meeting people but it sounds like that would be one of the best things for you to do. I think part of reason you arent meeting people is because you are your own worst enemy. You give all these reasons for why you cant meet people but if you gave yourself half a chance I am sure you could meet some good people in the real world.

Please dont become dependent on people online for your happiness because it really isnt a healthy thing to do. I dont mind that you want our support and I am willing to talk but what happens if we stop going online? What if for someone reason both me and Rach878 arent able to be online for a few days or even a week? You need to start to learn some self help techniques. Maybe journaling since it sounds like you really just need someplace to vent out your feelings. Please stay safe.

[nart]

im interasted in both you guys eating disordes......................

[nart]

you guy im sorry that i thaught you were avoiding me..........its been a couple of days scence any of you responded ...i got hurt because i really thought we were starting to be friends..........i really need people to talk to.....you 2 are the only ones i talk to... i dont no how to use messanger.......or if there reallly are free chat rooms............. you both didnt responed and it made my feel bad........it made me feel like i will never ever have any friends. so im sorry i thaught that.............rach did you say you have scares on your legs??

[Rach878]

yes, people can see my scars. One are especially is clearly scared up. Both wrists have very visible slashes from where i got stiches, by legs in the summer too, but only when i wear a bathing suit. To tell you the truth, at school kids used to tease me, when i was still cutting, which only made it worse, calling me scar arms and asking if they could see like i was some kind of freak. Know i know people see them, but no one ever really says anythign to me. I know teachers worry more about hurting my feelings and stuff, but most of the time i don't get any comments. You could try scare cream, it helps.
My eating disorder is something i'v had since i was 13 and it started for the same reasons cutting did which i will tell you more about late. Right know i have to get ot class/

[Warped_Reflections]

Nart, are you annoyed that we didnt respond instantly? I try to be on here everyday but I do have things in my life I have to do. Work, school, friends, family, and today I got braces put on my bottom teeth. My mouth has been hurting a lot so I have been trying to just sleep all day so I dont have to deal with the pain. Med Help is about helping people but we cant stop living our lives and just be online 24/7. I am glad to hear that you want to relearn things. I am hoping you mean relearning things in a healthy way. Please stay safe and know that even if you dont get a response right after you post, know that someone will respond eventually, it just may take them some time.

[nart]

you know guys i still need you to talk to me i think you guy can help me..........im glade for all the nallage you guy have and how positive you guys are........i need to relearn how to act...and what to say what not to say....i dont know what i should or shouldnt do...im just trying what it like to be real with some body you guys are the frist people i have talked to besides my ex..........so if you  guy tell me what i did wrong i could learn from this..........tell me what you see is wrong with me....i cant see good  throw my emotion so i seem different ...and i hate being different but i am ......and you guys got to help me fix  these thing that are wrong with me that you can see......only if somebody could tell me how to  improve on  from a different perspactive a doctor cant do **** for me but you guys can because you got to know me for a while.....if you guess dont talk to me i will never tell any body what happened to me again...... because i will know people cant handle the turth about me...and one of you said i should be able to tell it like it is.......i thought med help was all about helping people out........maybe its not.......