I've had most of my life sucked up because of anorexia and bulimia. I am now recovered, only issue lingering has been with my body perception. I use alcohol to block out thoughts, and I enjoy the combination of alcohol with food. Lately I haven't been very active - I can't seem to find the motivation to do even day to day stuff. I am agoraphobic and also am disabled. Although I'm petrified of getting fatter, I've been making excuses in my mind like 'I'll be aright to get another packet of crisps'......after I've already eaten two packets. My trousers have become tight. :-(
I live on my own and because I don't cook, there is no variety of food I consume. I like to graze on snacks and prefer to eat food in high quantity, but low fat. I've got into a pattern where I eat the same thing everyday which I think will be difficult for me to change. I also don't like to spend much money on food, I spend my money mainly on anti-wrinkle cream!?!! To end on a positive note - I am able to swim well and despite the agoraphobia, e.t.c. I've managed to go recently. Beanie0:-)