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[mtgoat911]

Hey, new to this forum but i have been at medhelp for a while
this week was the first time i have publicly admitted that i have an eating disorder
i am going for an MRI wed. to seee just how much damage i have done
i am usually full of suggetions on other forum, but here i will have to wait until i have done more foot work and research
i am also seeing a doctor for this problem , so i will pass along his suggestions
right now i am on step 2, and following the EA program

[mtgoat911]

so the mri results came back ok, then my family doc sent me to a GI doc, yesterday i had a hida scan, i do not have those results, i am going to my shrink monday and will tell her that the medicine she has me on makes me binge after i take it, thats what i do not understand, the standard treatment for an eating disorder is anti-depressants, but those pills make you eat more than you did before, so why is this standard treatment?
well i have been doing better with my binges, its been 2 days since i have thrown up, the GI doctor broke it down for me
i kept trying to tell my mom and my husband that i needed to puke or i would just be up all night with heartburn
this doc explained that people who are having gall bladder problems cannot digest food properly, and with me being in recovery for bulimia, my body finds it easier to throw up then take a heartburn pill and fight with the acid,
i hope everyone that reads (who has an eating disorder) goes to their doctor for blood work, i know its embarassing, but we all have people who love us and need us to be healthy.
fyi, next wed. i am going to be scopped top to bottom, not looking forward to that, i will be asleep thank God!!!!

[mtgoat911]

well, my doctor actually figured it out...and then i came clean
and uggghh its great to see a familiar name
its hard to hide an eating disorder, when i went home last christmas people were shocked that i had gained so much weight
and i could not hide it from my doc because i am starting to have medical problems
i am having these terrrible attacks where i am in so much pain i cannot function, i believe it is my gall bladder, i had test done for that yesterday, i will know something in a few days
once my doc figures out what going on inside he is going to work with me on the actual binge eating
i am also in recovery for 2 other issues, i believe that i have substituted one of those problems with food
i have found a group of women who have done the same thing, some of them are still doing it (like me) but others have stopped and are working with us
its so funny, i believe that before i die i will have every 12step recovery book out there
i had no idea that there were hundreds of 12step programs, and that they actually worked, i am trying to have faith that OA will work for me, because other NA and EA have been very helpful

[chelle05]

i wish i was brave enough to come forward with my problem and get help.
congrats to you on taking a big step forward!

[uggghh]

hello once again...unfortunately i'm right there with ya sister...just a few steps behind:(

[shlee1016]

I agree with the previous post. It's a huge step to admit it. Congratulations! You should be very proud of yourself! Keep up the good work. It will most definitely get you far. My  name is Ashley and I'm always happy to talk or help in any way I can. I hope you have a great day!

Ashley

[Ranaesheart]

Congratulations to you ... you've taken some major first steps in your recovery.  Admitting it publicly is huge .. and I am so proud of you.  

Hoping your tests come back favorably and stay with the EA program.  Here to help should you need a friend.  

((Hugs))
Ranae