I'm a 20-year old college student, and I have an out-of-control binge eating disorder.
These last few months have been a rollercoaster. It's like a broken record... Monday through Friday, I'll be exercising vigorously and severely restricting calories because of binge-eating on the weekends. Come Friday, I'll have a slice of pizza or two, then it all goes downhill from there. WITHIN TWO HOURS, I will have 3 bowls of cereal, a bag of trail mix, two p.b. sandwiches, half a pizza, a DQ blizzard, 2 granola bars, half a box of cheez-its, nachos, and then some. Any given weekend, I'll consume at least 15,000 calories. It's like I don't care about anything -- I will eat whatever I can get my hands on, and my appetite is uncontrollable. I've even gone so far as to eat my roommates' food, dig in the garbage, or drive to 3 different fast food places to get my "fix."
When Monday arrives, I will have felt so crappy by that point (knowing I worked *so* hard the week before to lose weight, and gained it all back!), that the calorie-restricting/exercise cycle starts all over again.
It has gotten to the point where I am either eating less than 1,000 calories a day, or more than 5,000 (during the weekends, usually). In fact, I just finished a 3-day binge -- of which my stomach literally hurts from the insane amount of food I packed in -- and am now taking laxatives and vowing to eat less than 500 calories for the next week to make up for it.
I HAVE LOST COMPLETE CONTROL. I don't know who to turn to. I told my roommates I thought I had a binge-eating problem, but they just look at me like a deer in the headlights. They don't think it's serious because binge eating isn't what you associate with the term "eating disorder," like anorexia. They claim I just "overindulge" once in a while, but they never see my late-night kitchen raids.
I feel my life revolves around food, and want my normal life back! How do I get help? Who do I turn to? Any advice would be greatly appreciated!