you'll never be skinny enough i dont say that to be mean but its true im anerexic and weigh 115 i used to weigh 79 pounds in 06 i got better got to 120 poud got preg and had a baby in summer 07 and relasped iv been trying fo another baby with no baby just four mscarragies i felt like crap and thats when ed popped back up i weighed 133 at the end of july went to doc in sept weighed 123 now i weig like i said 115 i look in the mirror and i see a fat *** with an awful stomach it makes me sick to look AT MYSELFbut i look at pictures of myself when i weighed 79 pounds and i still feel i look fat we have body dismorphia it never goes away to me my perfect weight is 0 but then ill be dead and my baby and hubby need me a bit longer so i have to settle for 110 but its never enough your stomach will never be flat enough. it ***** iv had this most of my life im 24 and feel im in hell everyday of my life
If the scale says you are dropping and in the mirror you are clearly not seeing it look into BDD (body dismorphic disorder) it is more common among anorexics and bulimics, but it doesn't sound like you are too far from that. Maybe taking tape measurements and seeing the inches go down will help, but if you are wanting to change a doctor would probably be best.
I think you have an obsession. You've said before that you think your weight is the only thing about yourself that you can fix, that your parents can't take it away from you.
What are you doing to lose the weight? You say you don't like eating because all you see is a pile of fat. That is unhealthy. I really think you should see a doctor because obsessions like this can and will lead to eating disorders such as anorexia and bulimia.
If you have a family doctor, book an appointment with him or her. Tell them how you're seeing things and what you feel. They will be able to point you in the direction of additional help.
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