Pretty sure it is a BFN

[scienceteacher79]

I haven't heard from the doc yet but I POAS (Equate) and I don't see a thing. Oh well. We tried, right? Now I am just waiting for confirmation from the doc. Then I don't know what we will do. Either try one more time, or wait until Jan. The nurse said people who have lost two babies (which we were discussing yesterday - just in case) usually opt for IVF. I just can't afford it. My share is a little over $5,000. That might sound good to some people but not me. I am a teacher and make more than my hubby. There is no way I can swing that...Oh well. I willlet you know what happens.

Jen

[kikicoates78]

You know people truly do not understand us, ecspecially OLD people. I was with you guys feeling the frustration every month it was heart wrenching ~SRI83~ Ive been where you are 6 times, And all the while people say when God thinks its time! Well BS! How many babies are givin to monsters everyday??/ I finally got to where I told people off, I know it was rude, but I did it as nicley as possible, I let tham know that their words did not help & they really didn't know or understant the situation so their ignorance is unappreciated!  I don't care it made ME feel better, I will say this because I did get lucky this month, I don't think it was God if it truly were up to him we would all have the babies we deserve, I think My RE knocked somthing loose when he tortured me the whole weekend that I O'd, there is no other explanation, I honestly thought he was breaking through somthing inside od me!!! He must have wiggled my tube through the scar tissue or somthing.
   I know nothing is going to ease your pain right now, and sisters you have EVERY right to be P I S S E D at the world!! I just hope that you get your babies soon.
~Jen~ I think you have been waiting almost as long as me! It *****, but I can offer that eventually you will see a light at the end of the tunnel! (D A M N tunnel!!!)
~GOOD LUCK LADIES ~ ((HUGS))

[Sri83]

Iam feeling the same as u do,,,very bad,,,so i have decided not to think of it and just get pain of these needles and tvs and iui,,,so bad,,,,
I dont know what u will be doing now,,
My Re played as such a way that this cyle did not work,,gave me proge,,before rupture,,i was not aware of the fact till i took on Proge pill,,,,,She wanted me to come for IVF,,how cruels,,i dont know how these people live by stealing the money,,like blackmail through their weakness,,,,,
many hugs to u dear,,,and what else,,just freak and let ur feelings go away,,,,

[scienceteacher79]

Thanks girl! Good luck!

[hkenny]

Well i dont know anyone of you but i just read this forum and man do i know how you feel! the f*&(ing wait to hear from and doctor and they wait and wait and wait and its like um hello this is MY LIFE hanging in the balance.Anyways I am waiting to test friday and i really just dont want to, even if i am late. i was late once by 2 flippin weeks and wasnt pregnant. i am so regular i was soooooo sure i was pregnant. and the thing was no one understood why i was so upset. the hubby was trying to be there for me but he never really understood, hes like oh we'll try again . ARRRRRRRR. that was a fluke month, this cyle is our 2nd actualy ttc. so i guess i shouldnt complain to much. i chart and have been for 3 years so i feel like it shouldnt take a long time. i am also on fertiliad which is a natural remedy, i have heard from alot of women on here that they tried and tried and tried then went on fertilaid and got pregnant that cycle.
scienceteacher i feel for you, i know what you are going though and it f*cking *****. I am throwing 2 tons of sticky baby dust your way.
H

[scienceteacher79]

PS:  I love you girls! HUGS to all!!!

[scienceteacher79]

I am just mad. Mad at everything. It isn't fair. All these crack w h or es get pregnant and people who didn't even want to be preggo. How is this fair? I am just so MAD! We are good people and still nothing. People fight for years. AND IF I HEAR ONE MORE PERSON TELL ME ITS GODS PLAN OR IF I JUST RELAX IT WILL HAPPEN I AM GOING TO FREAKING KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL SOMEONE! I am sick of the excuses people give me. It just SU CKS!! Plain and simple. I can't even hug DH because I know I will cry and I REFUSE TO CRY! My principal (who is going through IVF right now) knew I went to get blood done. I heard the news 1 minute before my kids came into my class this afternoon so I had no time to process it. Then my principal looks at me in the meeting and gives me a thumbs up as if to say "it worked didn;t it?". I LOST IT! I had to run out of the meeting. I emailed him later and explained why I was sobbing. He completely understood, thnakfully. ANyway - I am going to bed. I need sleep. And a drink...

[wishing4#2]

AAH!! I am soo soo sorry!!!I was looking forward to your good news today. I am just so disappointed for you!!! It really is so hard to go through over and over. I know your feeling of being stupid for spending so much money! And then I finally get pregnant without all the money and now i am just waiting for the pregnancy to officially end. The baby has been gone over 2 weeks and I am not bleeding at all.  So who knows I might end up with D&C I just want it over now!! This is such sad and messed up stuff we go through. Again I am so sorry!  Hang in there, somehow we always make it through.  At least we can come on here and vent!!

[ascott]

I am so sorry. There are no words that we can say that will make things better. When we are let down, anything makes us feel like cramp. Just know there are so many of us going through what you are now. Some of us got a BFP and can't keep it, and others got one and still don't know. It's a never ending circle. The worst part is it is soooo hard to be happy and not jealous of others who get a BFP and stay BFP. Scream girl, cry if you need to. We are here for you. Even if you just want to cuss and rant. We don't mind reading between the ****************'. This is one h*** of a rollercoaster ride. Good luck.

[Keyan]

I am sorry it didn't work this time.....I'll keep you in my prayers.

[Helen72]

Oh, I am so very sorry...  This was such a rollercoaster cycle for you and this bfn totally suc%ks

[kikicoates78]

Still early, I hope things work out for you! This S u c k s big ones!!! I know how much you wanted it. Life can be so unfair. If you were just 13DPO..... Ithink thats about when I implanted.  ~HUGS~

PS.... What    A S S H O L E S  for making you wait all day!!! I will kick some ones a ss for you if you would feel better! :(

[mommyluv02]

oh jen i am so sorry i was so sure this was gonna be your month. Maybe its still a little early. but you know that you ovulated two good eggs the just werent caught this month. I think that you should at least try one more month before giving up:) Lots of Luvs and Hugs!!!

[eternidad200]

you are absolutely right, it feels like a big wham in the head. When you go through a lot of fertility **** like we have been at the end you just feel numb. Every time you go through the process you have hopes but at the same time you don't know how to think about it anymore.
Yep, numb is a good way to describe how we feel right now, so much frigging money spent, so many freaking shots, hormones making you sick and at the end nothing.
sometimes I don't even know how to feel anymore, I want to cry but at the same time I am pretty **** off at GOD, people and the whole world.
Its not fair, we  go  through all of this and at the end is not certain, why, I just will f***** want to know why.  

[scienceteacher79]

Thanks guys. Weirdly enough - I am pretty numb right now. No reaction. Obviously I am upset but it wasn't really a surprise. F***!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like such a damnnnnn idiot for thinking it would work. All that money - gone. S H I TTTTTTT!

[SueGre]

Oh, Jen, I'm so sorry. I'm so sad for you, sweetheart. I know this is so fricking stupid to say but I think it wasn't supposed to happen now. I feel that things happen when they are supposed to and this wasn't the right time. At the same time, fu*k!!!

I'm so sorry, Jen-Jen.

Love and Hugs,

~Sue

[christi40]

I am so sorry.  Please find comfort that all of us go through this every month. For two weeks we all feel pregnant.  When AF comes we are all let down and sometimes we cry a little.  But one day with Gods help we will all see the BFP we dream of every night.  Take care of yourself....Christi

[scienceteacher79]

It was negative.

Jen

[Keyan]

Can you just walk in into the lab? I am sorry you have to wait sooooooo lONG! they should have a STAT for all Beta tests!!!

[SueGre]

Dude, the wait is killing me. Can those fu?#&ers call you already!!!

My bbs are killing me! And I have such cramps. Oy!

[eternidad200]

ughhhhh...so frustrating the wait... I still think you are going to be fine.

[scienceteacher79]

Double grrr...Still nothing....I am going to whooooooop somebody's A   S    S   if they pulled what they did a few months ago (the whole "not callin gme when their stupid machine broke down" and making me wait all dammmmn day and night and next day!) UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!.

Got into a fight with DH last night. That is really the only symptom - I always get into a knock down -drag out fight with DH the night before I fight out I am preggo, but alas, I think that was me just doing what I do best...b***ing :)

Hugs -----


Jen

[SueGre]

Grrrrrrr

[scienceteacher79]

Still nothing...

[eternidad200]

remember is not over until the fat lady sings, and we are not singing yet. You still need to wait for the RE to call you,is still early, hang in there.