Anyone here beginning IVF cycle? (NOV 2009)

[trying2conceive]

Just wanted to start new thread for anyone beginning IVF cycle during the month of November :)

[babywanted556]

I'm with you all ladies.  I have no one to share about infertility because they won't understand.  I just pretend not ready to have a kid yet even I'm 39.  The last 2 times with 1 MC and 1 ectopic pg they all including my parents and sisters/brothers assume I conceived naturally. In order to have all IVFs so far, I got the credit line from my home, then max out the credit cards, now my 401K because I know If I can not pregnant now it's to late to be pregnant in another couple years later.  I still have 1 more cycle left, and thinking of surrogate.  My younger sister had 2 kids.  I think something must be wrong with my body......I always transfer 5 or 8 embies which is alot.  How come none should stick.
I test again this morning, "Not Pregnant", but the faint line is still there.  From my past experience, Some thing must be wrong there again.  With previous BFP cycle, it should be positive by now, otherwise, the beta is low and turn out either MC or etopic one.  I won't test again till my beta on monday, 12dpt.  I'm ready for the bad news on beta day.
Best luck to us.

[Mariana101]

It's all so WEIRD!!! Two days before my beta I felt EMPTY inside, if that makes any sense. My tummy was flat again... I wasn't as hungry as before and I just felt something was wrong. Then two days after my beta was 17 and friday it was 13. They said the embryo (I had 3) did not implant or whatever!!!! MT HUBBY IS SO FRUSTRATED!!! He even wants to change doctors... But I know it is not the doctor... God does not wanted this to happen this time :(  I have to beleive in something because otherwise I will really grow bitter and won't be able to tolerate having kids or pregnant women around me.... I work with kids so I better put myself together soon but this is very very very difficult to understand.

This was my third IVF and I am going to keep going.... not sure how many times more because I only had 3 eggs last time... my eggs are running out!!!

My first and second IVF were totally negative... not even a small beta at least I had a baby little beta this time... I really hope next time will work otherwise I will have to do egg donor, embryo adoption or real adoption... in that order

[trying2conceive]

Since your beta is on Monday, how many days after transfer will that be for you? I have mine on tuesday and it will be 10dpt.

Well I know nothing is gonna stop you from testing :) So maybe tomorrow morning, if you test again, the line might be clearer? I wish you the best babywanted.

I too have been feeling sad here and there since yesterday. I wanna cry at moments for no given reason. I don't even want to go back to work. I don't want to have to face anyone. I'm not the best at hiding my emotions, but I certainly don't want to share this w/ anyone at work because deep down, they don't know what I have been through or what I'm going through. Almost everyone at work has a child. There are but a few women there who don't. Everytime someone is pregnant, I get the question..."so, when are you having yours?" I just don't understand how life works. Growing up, I never imagined having a child would be a battle. My DH and I bought our home soon after we married. We got a home w/ ample room thinking we'd build our family right away. Seeing extended family was no longer enjoyable because they all kept expanding their family and meanwhile we were the couple who kept getting the million $ question, "so when are you guys having one?" Why was it that members of our family had children and couldn't even do a decent job of raising them. Oh, but they kept popping babies left and right. Why is it that even though members of our family (women) had abortions earlier in their lives, they were still able to conceive years later. Where is the justice in all of this? I keep coming onto this forum because I have no one else to share this with. Who would understand? The friend who has been able to conceive naturally? I've brainstormed a million things I plan to do to help me cope if this doesn't work.

[babywanted556]

My beta is Monday.  I don't feel good today as well.....so sad and don't know why.  I left my work place early and stop by CVS pickup clear blue digital, even I just get BFN this morning with a dollar tree test.
Got home, and test again.....I'm so impatient.....I know it's still too early.  I keep waiting and waiting.......so long than usual, but finally "Not Pregnant".
I'm so upset, anger, then I break the test apart.  Right away, I see the second faint line there.  I don't know what to think.  Am I going to get pregnant or when I break the test it make the second line?  I will test again tomorrow and sunday.

[trying2conceive]

I know what you mean...I wish I had some god given gift to figure out whether any of the embies stuck. There have been a few women on here who did get BFP on their 1st IVF and that gives me hope. On the other hand, I don't feel like I have any symptoms that confirm anything. I keep looking back at the pic of the 4 embies my DR gave me and wonder if any one of them has snuggled. I so want this to work. I just think it's so unfair. I just want God to allow me to have 1 healthy baby...is it too much to ask for?

Today,  I am not feeling anything. It's an empty feeling.

So you go in on Monday or Tuesday for 1st beta? I am rooting for you and hoping that at least one of those embies sticks - good luck!

[babywanted556]

I feel so nervous even try to stay positive but this is my 5th IVF.  I got so tired with this process over and over.  I dont know what's wrong since I transfer 5-8 embies each times and I suppose to get at least 1 stick.
I don't know what to think, I try to analyze every single symptom and could not tell my embies still in me or not.

I don't have any symptom, no BB's tender....I could not tell I have cramp or not, maybe a little bit of cramp or lower abdomen aches or feel a bit heavier at lower ab., or pulling sensation on the left overies.........My god, i'm crazzy because listening too much to my body.  I wish tomorrow when I wake up it's 12.1.09......and I'm done with 2ww.