Bad night

[ALT76]

I love waking up crying - it really sets the tone for the day.  I don't know how I'm gonna get through this.  I can barely see because my eyes are swollen shut.  I didn't get to sleep til about three, then I was up from 5 - 7:30 and now I have to go get my blood drawn to see if my levels are going down and miscarriage is eminent.  I had all kinds of bad dreams last night - mostly ones where I was bleeding.  

Part of me wants to hold out hope because I've read HUNDREDS of stories at this point of women who were told they were probably going to miscarry and it was probably a blighted ovum at 6 wks 2 days - just like they did to me yesterday.  Also, the majority of these women have a tipped uterus, as do I.  They all had their pregnancies show up 2, 3 even FOUR weeks later and by 20 weeks were back on track with the timing they thought they were originally on, even though when it first showed up the doctor thought it was weeks behind.  The theory is that by 20 weeks, because of the pregnancy the uterus is pushed up closer to where a normal uterus is and everything becomes visible.  

I don't know - I don't want to get my hopes up and drag this out.  But I just can't let go of it just yet.  We'll see what my HCG is doing.  That will help indicate if it's on it's way out or not.  But at this point, the HCG could continue to rise normally for another couple of weeks and it could still be a blighted ovum - so who knows.

[ita17]

I'm hoping you will have HAPPY news tomorrow!  BUT WHY on earth did they not do the beta STAT?????  I can't believe you had to wait all weekend!  Thats pure torture ;(

[ALT76]

I am really dreading my blood test results tomorrow - it will determine if there is still any hope to be had or if it's all over.  I just can't believe this is all happening.

[kmcarino]

I am really sorry to hear what is goin on with you and what they told you.  i really hope it is not true and that your baby will be fine.  I pray that this works out for you because you dserve it and have waited long enough for things to go yoru way for once.  I wish I could do something to make you feel better but I know there isn't much someone can do.  I am also 6 weeks 2 days pregnant and at my 5 week 5 day ultrasound they saw two gestational sacs but only one had a yolk sac in it so I may also have had a blighted ovum for the second one.  They told me that it is more likely that the yolk sac will nto appear and the sac will still be empty this Tuesday when I have another ultrasound but that there is a possibility that it will be seen and it will be ok.

I really hope to hear good news from you.  We will all be here for you no matter what happens.

[Carolina1076]

I'm so sorry that you are going through this. My prayers go to you and trust in God that everything will be ok and you'll have a healthy pregnancy.

[rghkah38]

I am so sorry.  The amount of things you been through in the last few years was stressful enough and now this.  Please don't give up.  There is still a chance.  

[Quinns momma]

Oh Hon... I am so very sorry you are having to go through all of this. I just pray that your numbers have gone up and it was just too early to see anything...  Please keep us posted and know that you are not alone in all of this... We are here for you ALWAYS!!

Hugs,
Kelly

[usuk]

Wish I could do something. I have cried so hard that I nearly choked. It is heatbreaking to read your post. But it's because you are already in love. And because of that you will be the perfect mom in 9 mos or 12 mos or whenever. XOXXO

[SueGre]

Oh wow, you have had a rough night and morning. I am so sorry you are going through this. It's so so painful. I remember the days and nights of crying so hard my eyes were swollen up and bright red. It's so difficult. I won't say everything will be okay, because I don't know that it will. Just do the best you can to get through each day and lean on your friends here for unconditional support and love. And always remember: You are not alone.

((Big Hugs))

~Sue