confussed

[kate1234567]

ist cycle  got beta today hcg level 5 to be retested in a week am i pregnant

[kate1234567]

im so glad your going to try again i'll be keeping everything crossed for you and your hubby arms fingers feet legs toes (eyes )well i think thats a bit much but you name it its crossed wishing you all the best of luck. i know its alot of £s for the treatment but if it works it will be so worth it .anyway just on way out speak to you soon .x

[MEL4141]

good luck and I am really hoping and praying you have good news next week. me and my husband have been talking and although we always said only the one attempt at ivf, but due to the fact it did work,i just miscarried, we will consider another go in a few months. You are meant to be more fertile after a miscarriage so we will try naturally for the next few months and if nothing by august, we will go down the ivf route once more, but that will be it, it costs £5000+ so this would be our last try but who knows the natural way may happen for us, feel more hopeful now my husband has agreed this situation. keep me posted on your progress.xx  

[kate1234567]

hormone level gone up now at 612 to go for scan next week docs seem to be optimistic but told me not to jump for joy yet to wait for scan.
when i had mc i was told that it was possible to fall quite quickly after but should wait 6wks after to give body time to recover that was before i  knew i had fertility problems (pcos) personally i think as soon as you feel ready  go for it .
            speak to you soon x

[MEL4141]

Thanx for big hug, support and kindness does help. Having had all this going on for us and I havnt asked about your hcg level, has it gone up? are you at the begining of a pregnancy? wishing all he best on this.
Sorry to bring the past up, when you had your miscarriage did you try again soon after or leave it, is it true we are meant to be more fertile after a mc. I know i'm meant to get mentally and physically better, but with having such a rubbish reproductive system due to my eating problems, i don,t think I 'd have much chance at any stage of trying again.
thank you again kate for taking time to msg with me.x  

[kate1234567]

you are quite right to be upset bewildered having that sense of loss and if you do down right and utterly p£%$*d off  but please dont blame yourself it really isnt anything you have done . i had a mc years ago  and i bled for 3wks after so dont worry about your bleeding  on top of everything else just look after you and take it one day at a time .

                               sending you a big hug x

[MEL4141]

Thank you Kate, nothing can describe how I am feeling, its the sense of loss, failure and did I over do things, they told me to rest and not lift but I had to at certain times, I guess I am feeing lower again today as the "remains are still coming out of me, blood and clots etc"-sorry to be so blunt about it. Thought it was gone as i stopped bleeding a week ago, we made love as a comfort for each other last night and now am bleeding etc again, dr said normal just the remains coming out due to vigourous movement i.e intercourse triggered it off. anyway i have to come to terms with the fact that my 7 weeks pregnancy is over, and the last bits just slipping away. I dont hold out much chance for the natural to fall again as i'm in my 41st year and my fertility system isnt good due to years of eating problems hence going down the ivf route. Its too expensive and too stressful to do again, so heres just hoping some miracle will happen.
you take care kate

xxx      

[kate1234567]

i know its hard not to think that way but there really was nothing you could have done i think trying naturally is a good idea i've heard of  many people having ivf and then falling pregnant naturally i think its to do with the hormone treatment just gives everthing a nudge in the right direction . i ll keep everything crossed for you  .speak to you soon .
                        p.s keep your chin up

[MEL4141]

thank you kate, would love to talk to anyone, feel so empty, low, tearful all the time, why, why, why? did i lift something too heavy, have too much caffinne? exercised too much(only do walking) we will never know, wont be doing anymore ivf, £5500 is alot of money in england and we need some savings with this recession we are in at the moment. we will try naturally and just pray and hope something happens, my hcg is neg now and both hpt's i took today are neg so i guess nothing left and i hope we arent meant to wait weeks or months before trying again. i wish u all well and keep me updated, it nice to be in touch with pople that understand and listen.xxxxx thank you melissa  

[berrykkiss]

sorry about that mel.

[kate1234567]

im sorry to hear that dont know what to say its not fair ,ivf  is just so precarious  do you think you ll try again i hope you do and have the out come you deserve again im so sorry if you need to talk just let me know x.

[MEL4141]

just got back from hospital, felt somthing was wron as i did a hpt just for peace of mind again and because of the bleeding episode, lost our embie, nothing there in the womb, had early miscarriage they say, devastated and crying , wishing you all the best melissx