I am sorry to hear your discouragement. I will say a prayer for you to bring you peace. Good luck!
Definitely not alone. There are many of us who have struggled for a very long time. I've been at it for 20+ yrs. Got pg for the 1st time a month b4 my 41st bday. I lost the baby due to placenta abrupta, but it was genetically normal.
Anything worth having is worth working hard for. Don't give up. It's gets hard sometimes and there is a large support here. Unfortunately, it's the weekend so it is really slow. Weekdays are usually jam packed.
Welcome, welcome, welcome!!!!