Thankyou!!

[Chrissieanddan]

To babydayz421, Vingulf, Jennyfer976, babywanted556, Rach1717, Izzychick, Stillwaiting52, rumsy, ceeperkins, wishing4#2, diana1975, Lynn72, sam75, milky72, jenandjon,  jastinker, Jen7900, Jessbob, fifi blue.. & any one I forgot.

I just want to say such a big thankyou to you all, It has been so good to here from you all.
Its nice to know that you all care, & thanks for private messages .

I am hoping you are all alright, those that have there BFP which they deserve, those who have failed & those who are just about to start, & not forgetting those of you who are still on the dreaded 2ww.

I have spoken to my dh who said we can do another cycle I think he just wanted me to stop crying(bless)  this has been harder than I thought it would be, much harder, I have to take my hat off to those of you that have had 1 or more failed IVF. its hard when we was trying naturally but I never got obsessed with it if AF turned up it turned up, yes I was disapointed but I didnt feel like my world had caved in..

with ivf I suppose I just thought well its gonna work first time & that was it.. So did DH. I feel such a loss for my little embryos that died, its so hard to explain & some of you will probably think I am a bit mad, but I really feel gutted about that.

Today is a new day & I am trying to pick myself up, it is hard with DH not here, but I am sure I will get there.  You have all helped me get this far which I didnt think I would be able too, 2 days ago.

I am not crying constantly anymore which is good, as you all have said as time goes by it gets clearer,  It has made me look at how my life is & how much pressure I put on myself, I have my own business, Am moving to australia & doing another diploma, as well as working full days as therapist in my salon, & running my home, looking after 3 dogs & my DH, How could Ivf be a success if I have all this pressure on top of the pressure that comes with infertility.


I have decieded to sell my business, & cut my hours before I do my next cycle, I think that will help.
I just wanted you all to know that yes it has been so so hard for me, but with your support I have realised it is not then end of my world as previously thought & I will get through this..

But it would have been a lot harder without you all!
we are all blessed to have been able to form the friendships we have on this site, if we think of all those women out there that havent found this site & have to go through all this alone, it must be terrible.

Just want to send you all a big hug back!! & love & I am still wishing & praying that we all get our BFP very soon x x
love to you all Thanks again for so many things!!

[Chrissieanddan]

Hi honey I am ok, DH is coming home tonight early from Ireland he was worried I wasnt taking things so well, The more time goes on the better it is. I am still sad it hasnt happened for me & still worry it may never. But I am feeling better.
I go to see my consultant on monday so I will talk to him then, I suppose he will make me have a normal AF before doing my next cycle? I am not sure. Will keep you posted.
Thanks for caring, I am hoping for BFP soon too.
Happy Valentines day to U2 hope you have a good one honey.
love chrissie

[babywanted556]

How are you doing?  when will you start your next one?  wish you get BFP soon.
Happy V-day.

[lynn72]

Thanks for the private msg.Youre so sweet. I alreday answered it and explained why it takes long for me to answer. Im happy that you are not so down anymore. Goodluck to this cycle. I wish you get your BFP.

Lynn

[Chrissieanddan]

I wish you all the luck too with this cycle & i will be there every step to help you as you was with me honey.
Take it easy chat soon
love chrissie x x

[babydayz421]

Hi hon
im crying your so sweet & very welcome, i wish you all the luck in the world honey
and know that your BFP is coming very soon xx
take care
loads of love & big big hugs xxxx

[Chrissieanddan]

Hi Hon
The reason I am sellin is because I am emmigrating to australia the end of this year
so I was gonna do one more summer & sell it anyway. Yeah it has been good & I have done well out of it, but it is so stressful & I am so busy, the thing is without being big headed all the clients want me to do there treatments dont get me wrong my girls are good but initially I did all the clients so they have been coming to me for ages.

They get set in there ways & only want me, the week before christmas I was working solid from10am til 8.30/9pm without a break & was down regulating so I found it hard..
Also they just dont seem to give me a break its always cant you just squeeze me in there, I feel like they just take take take from me & I cant handle it & do another cycle.

The icing on the cake was on friday I texted a couple of my close clients that know & I am friendly with, I told them it hadnt worked & that I really didnt want to talk to them about it when I go back to work, anyway one of them text me the following day & said that she phoned salon & her appointment wasnt in with me for friday & if I cant fit her in she will have to soak off her nails.  It just made me realise that I am working my butt off for these people who really dont give a **** about anything but there nails, this is actually someone who I have known for 4 years & have become friendly with.

Plus dan is alway moaning because I work such long hours, I am exhausted with it, it is my own fault, if I open another salon in australia I am gonna do a few clients but not many.  I just dont have the energy to do it all anymore..

Even if I put someone in there I would still worry about it & a lot of the clients would still want me to do them. So I just want out, I want to get rid of all my stress so I can plan for my future & have a little baby if it works.

so basically that why honey I have just had enough really, plus would be too hard to run from oz..
love chrissie x x x

[jennyfer976]

Hey sweetie! I think you are on the right track and seem to be a bit more at peace with yourself now which is good. I have to ask why sell the business? Well I can see your reason (less stress) but I am thinking what if you just rented it out to someone or paid someone trusted to run it for ya and then you wouldn't have to be involved really but would still benefit from it. I guess it to me seems like the business was a passionate thing for you, and I don't want to see you loose anything because you are upset right now which is totally understandable too,....just thinking if you keep it, let someone run it and then if you ever wanted to get back involved say 5-10 years down the road or even sooner, all that business and hard work you put into building it up would be right there for you too:) Anyways decision is totally yours and I can see either way it would be great~ things are all going to work out ok and I am so glad I have had the opportunity to meet you on this forum and talk with you because you have helped me sooo much too! Chrissie you are a strong and wonderful person I know your gonna get that BFP soon!!!
With love,
Jen

[Chrissieanddan]

Milky Thanks honey
Hope everything is good with you
take care love chrissie

[miky72]

Chrissie,
you are great!This is the way to go!
I'm sure next time you'll get your BFP!
Lots of hugs to you,
Miky

[Chrissieanddan]

Thank you, you are all so lovely, although reading this made me cry again. I didnt think I had that many tears in my body.

I tested again today as they told me to it was negative again, I didnt expect any different.
I phoned the hospital they have booked my follow up for when DH gets back next week.
So I will ask them what they think may have gone wrong.  

Izzychick how long to you have til you get your results I hope it works for you honey I really do..

I will pray for you all I really hope to hear some good news x
Love & hugs chrissie x x

[jenandjon]

Hun your strength is an inspiration to all of us.  I am so glad that you're feeling a bit better.  I think trying to reduce some of your stress by cutting your hours etc, will help...if nothing else, I would think it might bring you more peace and quiet time...Lord knows we could all use more of that.

Hugs to you sweetie.  

[Izzychick]

Chrissie,

You are doing fantastic girl. You picked yourself up and made some strong decision about your life and your future. You are stronger than you realize. You will be ok. Thanks you for your support and kind words. You are a very sweet and genuine person. You will be in my prayers now and when you go "down under". Love and hugs xxxxxxx

[Jen7900]

I am so happy you are in better spirits!! We need you you sister. I am pumped up for your next try and will be here to pray and cheer you on!

Jen

[Chrissieanddan]

I am hoping your right & we will have our dream come true soon honey..
Baby dust, love & hugs back to you x x

[ceeperkins]

Chrissie
you are so welcome! you are such a sweetie and caring person that's why i know GOD will bless you with you family way before you know it. And i am glad to hear that you are trying to pick yourself back up i know you feel like you fail. Because i do, But God has a special plan for us all. So just relex you body and take it easy i will be waiting to hear from you when you are on your next 2ww wait :) Because of people like you i said i will give it another try. May God bless you and yours and see you next cycle :) The next one will be a success i can feel it. Hugs & Kisses and lots, lots of baby dust to all.