You know, I just feel different this month...

[SueGre]

I just feel different this month than I have in previous months. I'm fatigued and a bit irritable and I'm not an irritable person at all. My cramps are really really strong. I am far more sensitive about things than usual. My skin is breaking out. I've had a bunch of headaches. I have blue veins that start at the top of my bbs and draw all the way to my nipples. My cm is crazy. It's there all day and very yellow and globby. I think maybe I'm feeling stuff more because I'm a little bit older? I'll be 41 in December. I look in the mirror and don't feel like I'm looking at a 40 year old. I want this so unbelieveably badly. I want it so much it hurts.

SSBD!!!!!!!

~Sue  

[SueGre]

Forgot to say that my back starting hurting tonight, too!

[tina1111]

Oh Sue! The symptoms are sounding good this cycle! I am praying so hard for you every day. I hear you on the age thing. I don't feel it at all either. I still feel late 20 something. Just because time goes by, doesn't mean we go with it. We're still here d@mn it! Same as we always were. I think even better ;)  Get than elusive bfp this cycle, would you?!?

((((big fat hugs))))

Tina

[scienceteacher79]

OMG! Oh I hope this is it. That is the only thing that will make me feel better!!! Come on BFP!!

[SueGre]

Good morning, Tina.

I really feel more like I'm in my late 20's or something. If I  in fact of I wonder if I'm feeling everything more because if my age.

I want to add very vivid, epic-seeming dreams. They are so detailed and seem to go on forever. Very different for me. I am a bit worried because I had no cm this morning. This happened last month around this time. I'll check for it later on today. It's 8:00, I've only been awake for about 20 minutes and thecrsmps are already very present. I was tempted to test today but didn't. I reallly should be receiving a bravery medal for that!

Love and Hugs to you both,

~Sue

[SueGre]

I totally have cm still. All I had to do was cough and a lovely yellow blob came right out!

[SueGre]

My earlier post was also supposed to read Good Morning, Jen-Jen but I spaced out and forgot! Sorry sweetie! I should add spaciness to my list. Yesterday at the grocery store I rammed my cart into 2 aisles because I was totally spacing out!  

[kikicoates78]

OMG SUE!!!
     I was having crazy dreams as well, I never would have guessed it to be a symptom!! I told DH I thought that was why my temp was still up! The RE told me that even brain activity could raise them!! I was still thinkin BFN! That is crazy that you said that. My dreams were awful though but sooo realistic!! I woke up with tears soaking my pillow, enough that one night I ran to my oldest sons room, and crawled in his bed and snuggled just to make sure he was ok! Thank goodness those past, some were really good dreams though!!!
     OOOHHH I hope sooo much for you!!!!! *************SSBD********** ~
  
  ~HUGS ~Keisha~

[Griggsy]

Good luck to you Sue!!!

[SueGre]

I'm so glad to hear you had wacky dreams as a symptom. This is really unusual for me. I typically remember a lot of my dreams, but these are really really detailed and very long seeming. I know dreams only last a few minutes, but these seem to last hours and hours. God, I hope this is it. I can't tell you how high up my hopes are and how terrified I am of being disappointed again.

How are you feeling???

Hugs back,

Sue

[SueGre]

Thanks, girl!  I'll keep you posted!

[kikicoates78]

~Sue,
      My anxiety is alot lower today, I slept maybe 20min. last night. IDK why, I was soooo tired, just not sleepy, if you get me. My dreams have now passed (Thank God).
It was so strang like you would swear you really had that converstation, but you think about it and you KNOW you didn't! uggghh. Are you dizzy or anything like that? I think that was the symptom that was completely diff. for me, Oh and by the way a girl at work, out of the blue was talking about her PG, she said she had wild dreams throughout her whole PG. I thought to my self HMMMM..... I'm not telling everyone yet till I see my #'s raise, IT'S KILLING ME! I want to scream it all day long!
    I hope I hope I hope you get your BFP this month, Its not fair!~ I have been blessed with 2 beautiful children, so I am thankful, but I think every women should have the MOMMY oppertunity!!!!  Well I guess all men should have the daddy thing too, I know this is my DH's first, and he has been on cloud 9, He wanted this as much if not more than me , and I didn't think that would be possible! How long have you been REALLY trying to concieve? I honestly never thought I would see a BFP again. I WOULD LOVE LOVE LOVE to share this experiance with you!
     Just get the DAM BFP! LOL My thought will be with you and here is some of my SSBD, I don't think it is expired yet!!! *******************SSBD**********************
~Keisha

[SueGre]

Hey Keisha!

We started trying in December of '06. We got pg in March of '07 and lost the baby on August 3rd. Worst experience of my life. We had to wait the 3 months after the de so we started again in November. So all in all we've been trying for a year and 9 months. Can't believe it's been such a long time. I don't know how people struggle with this for years.

I still am having really vivid dreams, except like you I'm not sleeping. 3 nights ago I slept like a rock but the last 2 nights I've barely gotten any sleep at all.

No dizziness to speak of.

My cramps are wicked the last few days.

Who knew I would be excited to have gross yellow cm all this time! Usually it's gone by this time, do I'm really really hopeful.

I was such a strong girl this am. I didn't test!!!! That's a huge accomplishment on my part!!!

I'm so glad you're doing well and everything is going great with you! Sooooo excited to see your #s!!!!  

Testing in 2 days.  Sooooo nervous!!!

Thanks a bunch for the dust!!!!

Hugs,

Sue

[kikicoates78]

~Sue,
     It can definatly be overwhelming, I think after the first couple years, I started getting less hope maybe so it didn't drive me as crazy, but after my m/c last July, all the hopes were ther again. I was almost convinced it could't happen, then it did! Well even though I lost I said well at least there is a chnce. So I guess it has been a year for both of us! So it would be great if you got your BFP too! Still here hoping for you!!!!!

[SueGre]

Thanks, Girl!

I'm so proud of myself for NOT testing this morning. I'm such a good girl!

[SueGre]

Hey! Let's add greenish poops to the list! You're welcome!!!

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[Houston79]

Hey girl!
I hope this is it for you!  Your symptoms sound promising and you sure don't post those every month!  Good luck testing!!!! SSBD!!!!

[SueGre]

I hope you're right!

I can't believe how exciting it is to have icky globby yellow cm for almost the last 2 weeks. I usually have the creamy stuff for 4-5 days after O, but this time it's yellow and I've had it for 10 days straight.

Keisha asked me if I've had any dizziness, well today I was standing in the middle of my office talking to a client on the phone and I got a huge swoosh! of dizziness unlike anything I've ever felt before. I get dizzy and nauseated a lot due to allergies, but this was way different.

I really shouldn't test until Sunday, but my dh knows I'm going to break down and try tomorrow.

I'm so nervous. I have my hopes jacked waaaay up and I just don't want to disappointed!!!

Wish me luck!

Hugs,

Sue

[cure65roses]

Come on BFP!  Wishing you LOTS OF LUCK and TONS of Baby Dust!  You are NEXT!!!

[SueGre]

Gulp! I hope you're right! Testing tomorrow and Sunday. Really, really, really nervous!

[aweeonetolove]

good luck. good luck. good luck.
yikes. i want to test. i wish i could test tomorrow.
your symptoms sound great this month.
i'm rooting for you, and for all that green poop (eek!) might mean.
good luck. good luck. good luck.

[SueGre]

Need to add sore gums and green diarrhea to the list.

[Heather5]

Hey Sue! Did you test yet? I hope it's a BFP!!!

[kikicoates78]

~Sue
     Good Morning! How are things going? I see you got dizzy????? I am crossing all my fingers, remember don't get to discouraged if you test, Its still early!

((HUGS))

[Houston79]

You've got quite the rap sheet of symptoms.  Did you test yet today or are you holding out until tomorrow? Remember, 12dpo is early... Good luck and SSBD!