OMG! Got a PEAK READING! FINALLY!

[scienceteacher79]

Of course, NOWWWWWWWWW I get a peak reading on my monitor - after I gave up BDing and settled into the idea of the RE just starting AF in a few days. My temp dropped way down today too... Maybe Maybe Maybe. The bad thing is that I was going to be having AF jumpstarted and we could start back with the shots and clomid after AF showed. Now instead of jumpstarting AF in 5 days, if I O (with my crappy PCOS eggs) I gotta wait the 2 weeks. DANG. Maybe I won't actually O...I don't know what I want! I am excited I am going to (probably) O but know we have a long shot with my eggs not being all drugged up. They seem to be crappy without the drugs to mature them fully. Ugh - Anyone else feel like a failure when your own eggs don't work well :( Well, I don't know if I should ask you all to pray I O or pray I don't O - going to BD tonight and probably tomorrow night anyway, just in case... HUGS to all. SSBD too!

[scienceteacher79]

I usually don't O on my own so it will be a miracle if I do :) I think I am finally starting to be less stressed all the time (school is almost over) and it is seriously helping with TTC :) Well, wish me luck, I will update tomorrow if my temp shot up or not :)

[miky72]

I think its good news that you O on your own!
it means your body works!And with a little help you will get your BFP very soon!!
Good luck this month!

[scienceteacher79]

Yes! 4Angie - exactly!! I also feel like a completely different person from who I was before all of this TTC stuff. I am definately FATTER! UGH!!!!

[4Angie]

I understand completely what you are talking about.  I feel like I am not whole because I am having fertility issues.  It is like you are not complete and it is so frustrating and depressing.  Why can't things work for our bodies the way they are supposed to naturally.  We are stuck on all these pills, shots, and suppositories that make you a different person and we still have difficulty.  UGGGHHH!!!  Hang in there!

[scienceteacher79]

Thanks! How are you feeling?

[Cheesecake7]

Wow, I dont blame you for not knowing how to feel, I can see how that would bring about some mixed emotions. At least either way you will have something to look forward to. Good luck either way, hang in there, you are getting close!  SSBD!