still waiting......

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anyone else in the long two week wait losing their minds??  Christmas is just soooo far away for me in my head even though it is only next week!!  Man I really want a Christmas Miracle - this is soo hard.  I am practically begging for the time to go by.  19 months is a long time to be doing this - with 3 years of doing it to get my son.  Just exhausted and ready to get on with living, this feels like you are frozen in some giant lab experiement that just keeps gettting redone.  I am just frusterated.  I know that i need to stay positive, but how hard is it to stay positive when all you get for being upbeat and looking forward to something is bad news - I am worried and nervous and I have a cold and I just want some good truth to come my way (and everyone's way!) and I want a due date and all that good stuff - Thank you all for listening - it is soooo important to have a place to put all this angst when i feel it so that I can get on with my day!  Okay, a week or 10 days to go ... praying for stregnth....Krissy in MI

gr8nurse · Answer

LOL!!!! You are absolutely right.....anybody else and they would say I have gone bonkers, fell off my rocker,ect...!!!! I am praying really hard at this point... I am now 8dp5dt and my HPT was BFN. I am trying to think positive, but with each passing day it is starting to diminish....I was so sure this would work for me, I guess that's what I get for being sooo sure. I am preparing myself for a negative beta. My DH is going to be sooo disappointed. He said something tonight about would I leave him to be with someone else who could give me a baby. I told him no way. We have 4 children together and the issue is not him...it is me. I should never have had my tubes tied. Why did I let the doctors talk me into it. Just wishing really hard right now!!!! Thank you guys for all of the support!!!!

Nikki227 · Answer

I am 4dpiui...and I am having all kinds of thoughts and aniexty, I just want to test....14-16  days is just too long, but worth the wait in th end

sitsteady · Answer

hi,i'm from white lake,mi ,i see u r from westland also my pregnancy test is on 24th dec and urs is on the christmas day,sounds like we r on the same track.can't wait for the 24th,good luck for both of us and it would be a really nice christmas wish comming true.will pray for everbody and both of us,keep in touch,bhoo

Jennifer330 · Answer

Oh, don't feel like you'd be a failure if it doesn't work this time! We follow what they tell us and hope for the best! It's up to God and we're on his time, not on our own. Praying for you and everyone that this will be the best Christmas present EVER!!

That's so funny that you're taking to the embies. I talk to the sperm and tell them they better swim hard and hook up with at least one egg!! Only others going through this would understand this! haha

I'm thankful for all the support on this community! It is wonderful!

gr8nurse · Answer

This is the longest wait of my life! I am worried because I don't feel any different. This is my 1st cycle of IVF and the suspense is killing me! I want to know now....Guess the best things come to those who wait. Like the rest of you, I am praying really really hard.. My husband really wants this too and I feel like I will be a big fat failure if this does not take. I am talking to the embies and telling them they better stick tight.

thegardenlady · Answer

ladies!!! Thank you all for making me feel like I am not losing my mind alone!!  I know we are all losing our minds but now I know I can hold fast to my birds of a feather and pray for all of us instead of just feeling sorry for myself!!  I am going to NY (I live in MI) for a few days but will try to be on here to keep up with everyone!!  Sticky sticky super sticky baby tape to everyone and many hugs and a lot of quick tick tocks of the the clock!!  Krissy in MI

Jennifer330 · Answer

I'm with you all too! I'm 10dpiui today. I want to test soooo bad but know I should wait. I test at the doctor this Monday to get official results. I really don't feel any different. My hope is fading....I pray all the time and just hope that this is the time it's going to happen.

Hang in there and I wish everyone the best! We're not in control of this process which really *****! :)

lawrence0809 · Answer

I am right there with everyone.  I am 7 dpIUI.  I am dying.  I was told I can test on Christmas day.  I don't know if I can make it another week....argh!  patience is the hardest thing for me.  I say a prayer every night.  We are also right around 18months trying.  This is my first so it's even harder b/c I don't have any children yet.  I will say a prayer for everyone.  Best of luck!

Care76 · Answer

Hi-

Believe me, I'm going through it too! I'm almost at the end of my first week of waiting and it's starting to play with my mind. One minute I think theres been implantation, the next I don't. I went through a cycle in January that was unsuccessful and am hoping for better results this time. Just try to stay positive and try to find something to keep your mind off of it- I know though, that's easier said than done. (I can't even do it!). Wishing you much luck!!

nikkinikki · Answer

Hello,

I am now 2 dpiui!!!...I am trying not to let the wait or doubt get to me! I am claiming my miracle baby. I had iui w/femara 2.5 and hcg trigger. I suffer from pcos....