late implantation or is it all going wrong?

[keepfingerscrossed]

I am sorry to post yet again but i am all over the place emotionally because i simply don't understand what is going on - in a nutshell - these are my numbers:

7dp2dt - 6.7
9dp2dt - 48
13dp2dt - 180
18dp2dt - 335 (not good as didn't double in 5 days)
19dp2dt - 551
21dp2dt - 1220

today is 24dp2dt - i should be at 5w5d - i had a scan today and my RE said it looks like i have all the elements there - sack, yolk and she thougth she could see a fetal pole, but that it was far too small - according to the u/s it was only 4w - so i am 1.5 weeks too late - she said if i was only 1 week behind she would be OK with it - she said that there wasn't much chance of success since it was so small, but there was a small chance - there were a lot of tears, my DH was amazing, we were talking about trying again and had basically said that this try was over - then i got my beta back - in 3 days it has gone from 1220 - 2746 - should i still have hope? can it survive when it is so small? my RE said that some people even hear a heart beat at this stage and i am no where near ready - has anyone had this before - did it work out or not? i just need some guidance as i am on a roller coaster of emotions and am not sure what to do with them - please help?

[keepfingerscrossed]

Thank you ladies - you have given me hope - and thanks for listening - gosh this whole IF thing is tough - but i have decided to remain positive, if the bean is still fighting then so am i - i have got an appointment with my acupuncturist today - i am not sure how much i believe in it but I always leave teh session feeling positive and full of energy so it can't be a bad thing - and then its just a case of waiting until wednesday - it wil be very hard but i guess its just another test!
You have been superstars thanks for listening - and if you hear of any similar stories - send them my way - one minute i am on top of the world and very positive, the next minute i am faltering slightly -they all help!!

THANK YOU!!!

[amy8702]

First off, I just want to say don't ever apologize on here for posting too much. That's what we're all here for!!!!! Secondly, like Durban said, your numbers looks great! And the fact that everything is there, is also great. There are so many success stories on here for people dating behind, going for another u/s then BOOM everything is on date!!!! When it comes to a "non standard" pregnancy, it seems Dr's like to prepare you for the worst. Almost like saving their butts! But really, from experience your info looks promising. And if you need to vent, post every 10 mins if you need to!!

Good luck!

[Durban81]

Don't let negative emotions put stress on u both. Just try relax. I have been though a couple of mc and I know if u negative it plays a roll on things. Stay positive and see your bean growing and number tripling. I'll say lots of specials prayers for you

[keepfingerscrossed]

thank you - i am just worried because my Doctor was so worried - she said it wasn't likely that it was going to succeed so am very very worried! and scared! i am not sure what it all means - done too much research and my brain is frazzled - not sure whether to be optimistic or think its all over!

[Durban81]

Hun, numbers are great and going up nicely. They where just slow and now are shouting up. U need to start relaxing and enjoying hun cause your next numbers will be great again. Have faith. They going to shoot up don't worry. Keep smiling