Stress, unexpected stress makes me want one. The anxiety it causes makes me just want to feel normal, but I have come to realize that this is part of the quitting process and anxiety needs to be treated as a separate entity in order for me to make it thru. Even if I have to be on meds for a year or so till this phase planes out. Anxiety was what made me fail in the past as I was not prepared to deal with it nor did I have the knowledge to know it was coming at me! Now I know and am prepared and dealing with it. I love my paxil! So does the hubby!
I believe the hardest..............are the things you don't see comming. I can have my day some what planned out and one disturbing phone call can send me into a spirial. So I have to have a plan. To excuse myself from things that might interfere with my new way of life.............To put my recovery needs before anything else.Because this is my life..........and I will not allow people places or things get in the way............Just for today, I will have a program of recovery.
I am responsible.................I will do my best................Just for today.