I've recently tried having sex with another man for the first time in my life. Key word: tried. After some foreplay, he got on top of me and started pushing in; only managed the tip before I decided it hurt too much and wasn't ready, and he pulled out.
This is a more recent friend - not overly close (first mistake) but we'd been talking and flirting for months. When he pushed in, he wasn't wearing a condom. While we were doing foreplay, I didn't notice any pre, but I'm not sure that means there is none. Said friend assures me he is clean, but he also says he had one, maybe two unprotected encounters since his last test, and one protected encounter, though he assures me that those friends were clean.
Maybe it's the first-time jitters, but I've been freaking out ever since. I don't know what the odds of being infected are or if I should get tested or what. I don't have coverage, and I am reliant on others for transportation who I don't want to divulge any sensitive information about my life to. I'm afraid and I'm losing my mind.