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hiv myth or reality?
i am petrifed of HIV i have so many symptoms - white tongue, muscle ache, sickness, nausea, peeling skin, dry mouth, hoarseness, acne, jaundice, panic attacks, sweats, ulcers, fatigue strnage blood results, rashes, etc
I know some of these symptoms are stress related - but I have had a total of 8 tests with two tests for HIv each time - at 6 weeks, 8, 10, 14 weeks 5months 5.5 months, 6.5 and 7 + months after the single incident. All tests were p24 antigen and antibode fourth gen test and each time a second blood sample was sent off for an ELISA test - all negative thank God.
yet still all these symptoms now have developed really swollen glands and asthma! (wheezing) My GUM consultant says no more testing, My GP suggests I'm HIV OCD and yet she acknowledges my real symptoms and says I have elevated WBC (a mystery virus) increased bilirubin 22 - 25 (Gilberts???) thyroid elevation - but this is going on 8 months and the symptoms are still present.
I know am in great anxiety and even though I noted how when I went to an ENT who told me my white tongue wasnt thrush - and then the white tongue disappeared. I realise this might be psycosamatic (sic) but could all these symptoms really be brought on by 24 7 60 min stress where i search the net for hours every day, looking for every symptom every story. What do I do? I can't stop testing nor move on with my life - keep reading of people who serconvert later than my 7months + (one guy up to 4 years later - real or net myth)
I know some of these symptoms are stress related - but I have had a total of 8 tests with two tests for HIv each time - at 6 weeks, 8, 10, 14 weeks 5months 5.5 months, 6.5 and 7 + months after the single incident. All tests were p24 antigen and antibode fourth gen test and each time a second blood sample was sent off for an ELISA test - all negative thank God.
yet still all these symptoms now have developed really swollen glands and asthma! (wheezing) My GUM consultant says no more testing, My GP suggests I'm HIV OCD and yet she acknowledges my real symptoms and says I have elevated WBC (a mystery virus) increased bilirubin 22 - 25 (Gilberts???) thyroid elevation - but this is going on 8 months and the symptoms are still present.
I know am in great anxiety and even though I noted how when I went to an ENT who told me my white tongue wasnt thrush - and then the white tongue disappeared. I realise this might be psycosamatic (sic) but could all these symptoms really be brought on by 24 7 60 min stress where i search the net for hours every day, looking for every symptom every story. What do I do? I can't stop testing nor move on with my life - keep reading of people who serconvert later than my 7months + (one guy up to 4 years later - real or net myth)
Best Answer
I suffer from OCD as well and understand where you are coming from. Anxiety can cause all of your symtoms and I really believe that you suffer from extreme emotional distress and your symptoms are NOT due to late seroconversion. There is such a thing as psychosomatic disorders which can cause all kinds of physical problems brought on by your mind.
OCD can manifest in alot of different forms. People can and do obsess over all kinds of things, It is when someone has irrational thinking of a situation where most people can see how crazy it is but the person experiencing it has real fear and cannot see how illogical it is. I once convinced myself I would die in a monTH of rabies. It was extreme and ridiculous but at the time I was convinced as you are convinced. I would really recommend that you see a psychiatrist or therapist , I think it would help alot. GOOD LUCK!
look i really appreciate your comment - i know i sound like a wingnut - i was really normal up to 9 months, now all i do is obsess over this. And the symptoms keep coming which adds to the obsession and so forth....hence pardoxical decline! Dont even think I am OCD, as dont even really get what it means other than am totally fixated with my symptoms possibly being my worst nightmare. Cant escape from this as the symptoms never leave me - just new ones seem to evolve!
Look thanks for trying to help a stranger anyhow.
Look thanks for trying to help a stranger anyhow.
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