HIV and Obsession

[tgl12001]

Hi!

Let's cut to the chase and talk.

So I had unprotected sex early last year. I asked partners and they said they were all clean. I was the active/top partner for all of them. Then come late September, I had another encounter. Again, I was the top and the partner said he's clean (and on PrEP, saw the bottle myself).

Being someone who isn't out, I began to have guilt over all of this. I was freaking out and went to a clinic for testing on December 5. The test came out negative. I felt good for a bit. Then I freaked out even more and took another test at the end of January of this year (making it 40+ days since last risk event). The test came out negative. Then I freaked out again come April and took another test on April 5. So in a a span of about 5 months, I had taken 3 HIV tests! My rational side says that this is absurd and that I am indeed negative. I havent had a risk event since my last one in September of last year! Ever since then, any sex (very little) is always protected.

I have a history of hypochondria and unusually irrational health anxiety. Is it my brain that's torturing me? Recently, I've been getting mouth sores since I moved and graduated and got a new job. Sometimes, I end up thinking it's HIV. Sometimes, I'm convinced it's brought upon by stress of being in a new place and being anxious about my health all the time.

[JohnSnowNew]

Sex is a joy and something we all love therefore there is no need for going celibate when you are clearly safe and pose no risk to others.
Im not a doctor therefore i suggest you talk with your doctor and get his or her opinion which im sure will say the same thing that you do not have hiv and did not contract it from this exposure whatsoever. But it will be a great relief and dont forget to play safe, play smart and if you are sexually active, its a wise move to get tested every 6 months.

[tgl12001]

Thanks John!

So my April results are conclusive?

I've pretty much stopped engaging in intercourse since April...and on my way to being celibate.

[JohnSnowNew]

3 months is conclusive if you arent dealing with factors such as immunodeficiency or you arent on Prep or didnt have organ transplant recently or chemotherapy for any sort of cancer to delay the seroconversion, if those cases doesn't apply in your situation then according to CDC, WHO and many more respected organisations your results are indeed final and conclusive if you did not have any other risks since your last exposure.
Keep in mind that sex even with condom considered risky but low risk. therefore for people who are sexually active its recommended to have HIV test every 3-6 months.

[tgl12001]

Note: April test came out negative