Blood withdraw risk

[Paranoidalot]

Hello,
I have an ocd and hiv phobia, please help me to overcome this cuz I totally trust you. I will be brief
I couldn't stop testing after a 'no risk' situation (kissing) I did five blood test all negative. I was supposed to close the topic but unfortunately everytime I test I get other idea in my head. Now, It becomes fear of being tested. First from a used needle I tested again (negative) and then fears from cotton ball, I tested again negative but other idea came again to my head... I would like you to evaluate this last blood draw if I took a risk or not and advise me.. I really need your help.
The story is, I went for a blood testing (in my head this is the last time I test) . I told the nurse I have phobia, she was so kind and understood me. She changed gloves in front of me and gave me I new needle to open it. Unfortunately, I dropped it on the floor. She picked it up and discard it (it was still packed) she told me we have to change it to not get stressed after that. She indeed changed it and I opened it by my self. She explained me how to draw blood. Another question now came to my head. When I dropped the first packed needle and she picked it up she used another one but the same gloves (didn't change them after picking up the first needle). Now if there was some blood on the floor (I didn't see any fresh blood) but what if there was some spots. And those spots touched the gloves (or touched the first needle and then the gloves touched the first needle) when she picked up the needle, is there any risk? For exemple when she touched the cotton ball with those gloves and press it to my arm to stop me bleeding. Should I test again after this?
I'm really tired, please help me and advise me.
Is there any risk if she pick up some blood from the floor and she used the same gloves to draw my blood (she didn't touched the sharp part of the needle)?
I'm really tired, please please help me. What should I do?
I hope I was clear.

[Sara_MHModerator]

As stated, your question has been answered and we are now closing this thread.

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[GuitarRox]

Your question has been fully answered that you had no risk and do not need to test.  I say with kindness that it would be best if you work on your mental health.

[Paranoidalot]

May i stop testing now ? is there any risk for me or for my next wife??

[GuitarRox]

you are over posting.  You didn't need to test even the first time.  You really do need some psychiatric help.  NO RISK.  NO NEED TO TEST.  

[Paranoidalot]

Thank you GuitarRox,
No need to test even if i have symptoms which may lead me to think ARS? no matter of symptoms?
I'm so sorry.  

[Paranoidalot]

when i said "Not in general way" i mean please try to evaluate it separately. i know we cannot get HIV from blood draw but please evaluate what have happened to me during the last test

[GuitarRox]

I bet you ARE tired.  That's a lot. You tested for a non risk event which you now acknowledge is non risk and yet you too SO many tests.  And then you've now manifested a fear in the test itself.  This is where we have to discuss your anxiety.  You are not going to get HIV from a blood draw.  Injecting drugs is different than taking blood.  And people do not get HIV this way.  What do they have in your country by way of mental health professionals?  I think you need a doctor such as a psychiatrist.  It's important to get you 'unstuck' from an irrational HIV fear.

[Paranoidalot]

First, Thank you for your answer. i don't know how to answer other question in these forum (i hope this is the right place)
i don't want to bother you with my questions. i really want to close this topic and move on...i'm really tired (i test for more then 5 months)
may be beacause i'm going to get maried next week, that's why i have irrational fears (everytime i test, some idea come to my head and told me you are going to hurt your wife)...really tired and i don't know what to do.
please, evalute my situation (not in general way.. so sorry ) i dropped the first needle he picked it up and   change it. now what if there was some blood on the floor and the nurse touched it with the gloves (which she used after to draw my blood) and what if she touched the cotton ball with same glove which she used to press the area where she drawn my blood?  those both senarios  are making me nervous again.
please tell me if there is any risk in this situation or any another test is needed? may i get married next week without any risk to my wife?
i have several mouth ulcer during thes 5 months and everytime i test because of this (now i have one after the last test)
i know it may be silly for you, but please help me with your advice. must i stop testing definetly ?
So sorry again...i'm totally LOST. please help me