As our members have clearly stated you never had a risk and this is not an HIV concern. We wish you the best and are closing this discussion.
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You've been told repeatedly that you had no risk. I'm not sure what other answers you're looking for here. You've been told also that your issue is not HIV bit rather guilt, which will not be solved even if you take 100 tests. The only way to overcome guilt is by getting counseling, which you refuse to do. There's nothing more that we can do for you here.