breaking apart

[dummydud81]

tomorrow i go for my conclusive test. its been 6+ months since exposure...
but 2 weeks ago i started feeling bad, and my wife was complaining of allergies which she never gets.

i got tested negative for HIV at 48 days, and my doctor told me a few days later that i have no sexually transmitted diseases.
my exposure: i performed oral on a crossdresser/transexual man for more than 30 minutes, with no ejaculation. nothing else.

i am extremely anxious, very much more than any other time in my life. i have had 2 night sweats (though it was hot those days), no fever, and perhaps a few months ago i thought i had "aphthous ulcers"... i bite my lips, mouth, and tongue too much, so i considered part of that. it has not occurred again.

honestly, i am breaking apart and do not think i can wait until tomorrow... remorse, anxiety... you name it.

how reliable is my test at 7 weeks? i feel i have f*cked it all up...

[jstupid]

On this site/forum the members and the Doctors/experts state that oral sex is "safe sex", oral= no risk.

[dummydud81]

Sorry, didnt mean to cause an issue...
so this was no risk?? at all???
i just dont know people here.

thanks.

[Teak]

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[dummydud81]

thanks. but this is exactly whats driving me crazy (after this, i will not be the same). i read about low risk, theoretical risk, no risk, some risk, "there is a risk"...

thanks...

[LIZZIE LOU]

you were never at risk