Before I go on with my situation, I would like to thank both of you doctors for the fine service you provide us all. Thank you so much.
On Saturday night I was with a girl that I have known for a while. She is a stripper and she used to be a bit of a wild child, has had the same boyfriend for years now, but has cheated on him on several occasions.
The following details are what happened: We made out intensely (I know that HIV cannot be transmitted this way) I fingered her (I also know that HIV cannot be passed along this way), she gave me oral for a few seconds, and then proceeded to ride me vigorously for not more than 30 seconds on two different occasions. While she was ridding me, I felt as that I was sure that I was not inside her and that I never penetrated her. But for some reason, the idea that I was inside her has popped inside my head and it is driving me crazy. I was not drunk. I was not under the influence of any kind of substance and, in fact, we did talk about her status and she told me she is a hypochondriac and gets tested every year and always used protection in the past.
Also, two days afterwards I was masturbating and I ended up noticing that the head of my penis was very dry and had skin peeling. I did some research on it and noticed that it was more than likely due to the fact that it was caused by masturbating with no lotion.
I don't know, doctor. I hate being in this situation! I was soooooooo anal about the whole situation that I made sure that I did not allow myself to give her oral or let it get to a situation where I would be at risk, but my worry well side has gotten the better of me.
I have been under great stress at work and a lot of things are not going well in my life right now, and I just do not need this hanging over my head and making things worse for me.
What are the odds that I penetrated her and not known? And even if I did penetrate her, what are the odds I could have gotten something from the 30 seconds or less I would have been in her?
Should I even stress this? Or should I just move on with my life?