My story goes as under:
I am 27. I was passing through a rough patch in life. That day I was drunk too much and went on to have sex with a sex worker. It was my first time. During the intercourse, the condom broke. I only realised this when my penis came out. So I do not know how much time it was broken. Maybe a few seconds to maybe 3-4 minutes. I tried to calm myself down and was fine for some days. Felt very bad, guilty and depressed on doing so.
During the third week after possible exposure, one night I was drunk heavily and slept without taking a bedsheet or quilt above me. It was changing season, night went on to be colder. Next morning I woke up with a mild cold. A little sore throat, Very mild fever. I took a medicine CETRIZINE a couple of nights and I was fine. This fever, cold, sore throat lasted for 2-3 days. I also had a little Diarrhea for 2-3 days while I recovered, I took the medicine DEPENDAL M (Eve-Morning-Eve) and it was fine. Before the day of diarrhea, I ate something fried in very little quantity. Not sure if it could explain that.
But after this, I started thinking too much. Already used to have mood swings and depressed feeling due to some issues in relationship. My drinking frequency increased to 4-5 nights a week. I tried to be with friends in eve and try to enjoy. But at heart, I have been going more and more into depression and anxiety.
During the 8th week after exposure, I see a pimple or mosquito bite kind of spot on my Jaw line on face. When touched or pressed it felt to itch/pain a bit. I don’t know if this was a rash or not, was round and visible and went away in more than 2 weeks. It significantly added to my worries. In the 9th week, I see a less than half an inch rash on my abdomen. It was not raised, not itchy, no pain, a reddish line. Been there for around 10 days and seems to be fading. Till now I was drinking alcohol almost regularly at night. Now I tried reducing it and did not drink over last 4 days (11th week).
Around the end of the 10th week, I started feeling itching in hands, had to rub the fingertips and got little raised spots after that. It has lasted for 3-4 days and this feeling is also going away. In a couple of days of this itching, I see another rash, raised, mosquito bite like, round, reddish on my abdomen opposite to the one I have had earlier. It’s visible, round, reddish, raised, non-itchy. An hour before seeing this rash I was at a washroom with many mosquitos but the area where this rash is was covered.
Now yesterday I noticed some kind of mild spots, redness on my palms. These are not directly on skin, but rather underneath. At some places, they are there where I rubbed earlier, at some I think I did not rub. Today morning they were less. But still some are there.
I did not have any other symptoms, no muscle ache or anything. Didn’t feel any issue with lymph nodes. I was trying to lose weight before this incident but rather have ended up gaining weight even more than the 3-4 KGs I lost at gym which could be due to excess drinking and eating at night over the past couple of months. I do used to have a nauseatic feeling at times during the day. Even than when I used to eat, I used to like it. And while night, while I used to drink and eat, I just enjoyed eating and didn’t feel anything like that. When I think I am nausiatic, I feel so. When I think I am fine, I feel fine.
One more thing which worries me is that the sex worker, that day was having cold and fever, flu-like symptoms.
I will get tested for HIV and all other STDs at 3 months but I am very nervous and worried. Hope everything comes fine but I am very very worried. Education going to finish in 15 days. Got a new job. My biggest fear is that my mother will break if it happens to me. She raised me alone after my dad expired when I was 6 months old and its only we both who have each other. I was so irresponsible to do this act. I feel guilty and depressed.
My queries are:
1. Various forums say rashes usually appear in 2-4 weeks. And they also use the wording, “Rashes will show up in HIV positive people at some stage”. So can these rashes, between 8-10th week be related to it?
2. Can anxiety, depression and alcoholism be reasons for some or all of these rashes?
3. Can reducing alcoholism be another reason for itching on hands, or some rashes?
4. Do my symptoms relate to or indicate some STD(s).
5. What does it all looks like?
Regards,
A very worried man...