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The Anxiety!
Guys my anxiety is at all high!!! About 12 days ago i had an encounter with a couple I was so intoxicated I can't believe Iade such bad choice. Well I gave oral to the woman and her husband pulled my pants down and put it in me about 3 -4 times I believe I was pretty drunk I do remember I stopped him and didn't let him back inside he didn't ejaculate in such short period she did finger me so she could have scratched me! anyways I work with his wife and I do know she is very promiscuous and doesn't use protection. Well I did start getting symptoms like headache, bodyache, nausea, back pain, vaginal burning and my feet burn. Well I did think it could be something like yeast or something but I googled and it mentioned for hiv feet burning at early stage I feel like crying I can't believe it. I'm so scared right now dont know what to do I'm going to a clinic tomorrow I have no one to talk to. Also I am married I cheated I made such a ****** mistake and have done it beforehand but I don't understand why I keep doing it.
hiv docs can't diagnose from symptoms so no one here pays attention to them. You should stop examining your body because if an hiv doc can't diagnose without a test, you won't be able to either. Googling hiv symptoms will just make you more anxious since it is 100% useless as a diagnostic so you should stop doing any more symptom googling cold turkey.
Such a brief encounter is unlikely to be long enough to get hiv so it is best to focus on that while you wait to test.
My guess is it is also unlikely that anyone who is married would have hiv since their partner would also have it - that would make it a big problem for them if they were knowingly spreading hiv.
As for your guilt, and repeatedly doing this while married, it is something you have to come to terms with yourself. If you truly feel you can't stop then see a therapist since it causes so much anxiety and guilt afterward, however guilt does not spread disease so try to separate this from your thinking until you can test.
Such a brief encounter is unlikely to be long enough to get hiv so it is best to focus on that while you wait to test.
My guess is it is also unlikely that anyone who is married would have hiv since their partner would also have it - that would make it a big problem for them if they were knowingly spreading hiv.
As for your guilt, and repeatedly doing this while married, it is something you have to come to terms with yourself. If you truly feel you can't stop then see a therapist since it causes so much anxiety and guilt afterward, however guilt does not spread disease so try to separate this from your thinking until you can test.
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