Visit to gay sauna

[NeedReassurance43]

I’m a 43 gay male, and I visited a gay sauna. I engaged in sexual activities with multiple partners: unprotected insertive oral sex and protected insertive anal sex. Exactly 4 weeks after the visit I got all the text book symptoms of acute hiv, including a day of fever and flu like symptoms, a mouth ulcer, headaches and extreme diarrhea. The latter still going on 9 days later, without any other explicable cause.

I’m extremely worried and can’t get this out of my head. I did a HIV test after 5,5 weeks and now awaiting my results. The wait is driving me crazy as this flu was so strong and was unlike anything I felt before. The mouth ulcer (which I otherwise never get) is all the proof my mind needs that the test will return positive. I read this forum stating I shouldn’t worry too much, but at this point I’m too afraid to even open the results.

How big a risk did I actually have?

[NeedReassurance43]

Thanks, I’m still worried though because the oral sex involved deep throating. After reading up on it, I’m confused as to why this wouldn’t be considered a risk? Other sources don’t seem so certain, so it’s hard to let go.

[GuitarRox]

You are still worried because you have anxiety. But anxiety and worry do not change the facts. This forum is guided by experts in HIV and is moderated for accurate information. Theoretical risk is all they speak of as there are NO proven, documented cases of HIV from oral sex in the 40 years of HIV being studied. You aren't going to be the first. Air and saliva inactivate the virus. So, your anxiety can cause you to continue to seek reassurance over and over and over but each time you do, you feed the anxiety. You will never get a different answer from this forum. Oral sex is no risk. This won't change no matter what your anxiety/worry keeps sending to your brain. No risk.

[NeedReassurance43]

Thanks for the reassurance.  My test came back negative as you predicted.

Symptoms are indeed worthless in relation to acute HIV.