I’m a 43 gay male, and I visited a gay sauna. I engaged in sexual activities with multiple partners: unprotected insertive oral sex and protected insertive anal sex. Exactly 4 weeks after the visit I got all the text book symptoms of acute hiv, including a day of fever and flu like symptoms, a mouth ulcer, headaches and extreme diarrhea. The latter still going on 9 days later, without any other explicable cause.
I’m extremely worried and can’t get this out of my head. I did a HIV test after 5,5 weeks and now awaiting my results. The wait is driving me crazy as this flu was so strong and was unlike anything I felt before. The mouth ulcer (which I otherwise never get) is all the proof my mind needs that the test will return positive. I read this forum stating I shouldn’t worry too much, but at this point I’m too afraid to even open the results.
How big a risk did I actually have?
As for being afraid to open test results, there's no need because your result will be negative as you had no risk.