Your baby is going to be okay. You have tested negative conclusively. You really have nothing to worry about, do not let yourself drift away towards irrational thinking, your hormones are going to give you a lot of emotional changes during these times, stay happy. Do what makes you happy, stay nourished and most importantly think well.
I bet my house on this, if you had a negative HIV antibody test 5 months post exposure it is not going to change, it is conclusive.
Especially if you have NO SYMPTOMS. If you have correlated symptoms and stuff not going away that is causing you discomfort, that is something to consider going to the doctor about, but it won't be HIV at the 5 month mark, any test will be 100%. I know this from research and doctors. I've personally had problems with this recently. However I still have symptoms, meaning I have something to sort out still, It's a headache but will have to get to the bottom of it somehow. Wish me luck, be happy you are SAFE AND SOUND.
You have other health anxiety issues besides HIV, so your situation is not something that can be resolved on a chat forum. No one can provide the therapy that you need. One of your other threads said you got test results on Oct 19, so now it looks like you tested again and still don't believe the result. If you don't believe the nurse, then you need to see a therapist.