HIV Risk

[BeyondScared2018]

Hey guys I met up with a guy on an app last night and I’m worried I may have put myself at risk for hiv. While the plan from jump was to only do 4 play one thing let to another and he wanted me to put my penis in his butt. However we settled with just pretending. Then fast forward a couple minutes he’s sitting on top of me playing with my dick behind him and he starts moaning talking about how big I am and that it hurts. Now let the record state I don’t know if he put it in or not but his moaning caused me to believe he at least put the tip in when he said that it hurt. So after I kept moving my penis he kept trying so that’s when I said let’s use a condom. So we put the condom on and it just wasn’t enjoyable so we just stopped that altogether. However we did do oral as well as making out and other things. I know those are all considered low risk so I’m not concerned about those. It’s whether my dick was in his *** or not because although there was no penentratjon im aware that I’m still at risk. Furthermore I asked his status (after we were done; yeah dumb I know) and he says he’s clean but honestly I just have a feeling he’s lying. So I guess my question is what do I do next? I know my risk was low but the fact is there was still a risk. Is pep reccommended? What are the negatives of pep because I know there are some. As someone whose been fearful of hiv since forever and that goes and gets tested after every experience I’d say I’m pretty calm right now. Normally I’m freaking out and panicking but I’m kind of at a if it happened I only have me to blame phase. I think I’m just tired of this fear and going through this. I just had to post this to see what you guys think. I’m definitely going to test as I always do probably in 2 weeks then again at 1 month but something tells me I have it for sure this time which is why I think I’m so calm. You ever just had a knowing feeli

[CurfewX]

This story makes absolutely no sense.  You state that he was moaning about how big you are and that HE might have put his penis in? Sorry, but the story is incoherent.

Everything else you mention is NO RISK, not "low risk" as you stated.  If you think you were penetrated, or you penetrated him, get tested.  You've been around long enough to know when to test and what test to take.

No comment on the needless hand-wringing over the extraordinarily unlikely chance that you'll be positive.  "Feelings" have nothing to do with whether you do or do not have a disease.

[BeyondScared2018]

I’m not going to fight about this I agree. I didn’t really know how to explain this story so that’s why it seems like it doesn’t make sense to you. But thank you for taking time to respond I don’t really know what I was expecting to hear because as I’ve stated I don’t even really know how it happened or what happened even. Again thanks and have a good night.

[BeyondScared2018]

A knowing feeling * sorry I posted it too soon on accident. But yeah I’m pretty calm about it right now but if the test comes back positive who knows how I’ll react tbh.