Hello,
It has been awhile since I have posted. My husband was dx with Hep C in October. We went to see the GI doc and he said that looking at a copy of a CT scan or MRI of his abdomen that they took when he had kidney stones in November that his liver looked good. They did some bloodtests to check for geno type and viral load etc and told him to check back after the first of the year to talk about treatment as the CDC recommends most undergo treatment.
I called once to get the results, but they never called me back, I just left them another message.
The problem is my husband was of course scared to death when he first found out. He has always been a drinking man until he had a seizure in Sept and they said it was because of his drinking, so he quit....that was it. They also found that his liver enzymes were elevated and eventually diagnosed Hep C.
So....now here we are in Feb and he acts like nothing has happened. He has also started drinking again. He knows I dont approve, so he is hiding it. He gets a quart of beer on the way home and then gets rid of the bottle, I even have found cans in the trash and a bottle under the bed. I can tell when hes been drinking and now it seems most times it makes him really tired and hot and he has to go lay down. I ask what is wrong and he says he is just tired and wont look me in the eyes. I have told him I wont buy beer for you, but I am not your Mother so I cant tell you no, it is your body, liver and brain.
I love him, but I dont know what to do. I told him I thought it was okay to have a drink on special occasions like his birthday, new years ect, but to sip it, not down it. I am trying not to judge him because I know it is a disease and an addiction and it is his way to cope with things, but I also know they wont treat him if he is drinking.
Now he is also constantly bent over kind of sideways leaning to his left and says its his middle back that hurts, but he is just stiff. It also seems to mean that he is suffering from brain fog. We have been together 20 years and in the last year he just seems to be slower in conversation and often has a hard time just asking a simple question. He forgets little things alot, but mostly he just seems kind of like an air-head. Our boys dont know, they are 15 and 12, but they have commmented and joked about it and I can see sometimes they get frustrated with him. He is also itching a lot and has the skin condition Granuloma Annulare which I read is associated with Hep C, he has had this since I knew him.
I just dont know what to do. I constantly worry about getting Hep C from him, so sex is pretty much non-existent and that makes hubby mad. He wont go out anywhere because he cant drink so that pretty much cuts me off because we live in a rural area, so now we have no social life, just when our boys were getting old enough to start enjoying things again. Oh, and he doesnt want ANYONE to know that he has Hep C, so you guys are the only ones I can talk to.
I feel so bad because I find myself getting mad, and then I feel like......oh well, he is a grown man (just turned 45, got Hep C about 25 years ago) and he needs to deal with this, but I know he is scared. He used to be so healthy, never sick and in great shape. Now I watch him try to play frisbee with the boys and he runs very clumsy and looks stiff, where he used to be fast and agile. Maybe its just age, but seems to be more noticable in the last year, that and the brain fog issue.
I guess I am not really asking any specific question, just needed to "talk" to someone, its so hard to carry this around and not be able to share. We were already struggling relationship wise before all this happened, so now I have that guilt as well. I want to stick by him and help him through this, I know it will be hard, but I know if we really try it can and will bring us closer, I mean we just celebrated (yeah right) 20 years on Feb 21st. But I dont want to be the one to push him through everything, make all the appointments ect, is that wrong? I think he needs to do this, so I havent said or done anything after the GI appt, so he could feel in control, but he has done nothing. I am wrong, should I just take control of all his treatment, tell him when he will start etc...but then again, he is drinking...can you tell I am confused.
Thanks for letting me ramble, maybe I should have just put this in a personal journal instead of here. Any advice...anyone? I am hoping they will call me back with his geno type and such so at least I can know that.
Thanks all,
K-HepJourney