Irritability and Anger

[ann61]

I am in week 18 of triple tx (off incivek) and I find that I have become extremely irritable, easily agitated and often angry.  The smallest things set me off and when someone tries to get me to calm down I accuse them of telling me how to act or trying to repress my abililty to communicate.  I feel like I am becoming a very ugly person and am jeopardizing relationships that mean a great deal to me.  Is there anyone else out there that is or has experienced a similar feeling?  Any suggestions for dealing with this?

[libzo2]

I run into my evil twin a lot while wandering.  Then feel quilty about my base temprament and feel sad.  It's a bloody rainbow of emotions.  It can be very draining but in hinesite, looking back, it is a testament to how marvelous we are in how we adapt.  Irony seems to eventually turn my hystrionics into anecdotes.  I can work with that.

[streamline569]

I really think they need more training with these drugs.They are powerful and j some doctors are Just not qualified to deal with such dangerous drugs. Not sure how they get there training but I've  got much misinformation. Thank God I've done a lot research but it still wasn't enough because people who have treated won't tell you these things. They want you to clear and I understand that but it comes with a big risk and a lot don't continue because they are not prepared.. I almost quit last night. Thank God I didn't today was bearable.

[crigger]

I am new to site. I am glad I found it.     Side effects I feel like I slepted in cigger nest and sometime during the night someone put a hot poker up my butt then rolled my eye balls in the sand other than that doing OK @ 7wks

[scoleman]

I just want to chime in: me too!

Sherry

[Alive33]

I've heard that it makes ur mood rollercoaster, I can't tell u wat to do but find a way to calm down before u do something u might regret

[robo229]

Same here.  You're not alone.  I've yelled and argued with almost everyone I care about in the last 5 months.  Came close to physical altercations several times.  

My father (who would ordinarily take a bullett for me) kindly informed me that I had become a bit of a D*ck.  When it came from a reliable source,  I began more serious psychiatric intervention.

I hate the Jeckyll and Hyde routine, but Wellbutrin and low dose Xanax has mellowed me and I'm more likely to let stuff go without flashing my temper.

Robo

[sejmiig]

going on antidepressants was pretty much a requirement a month or two before I started all this; they insisted.  they said that the interferon would interfere with my mood.  they were right.  on top of all that, I get that SAD thing (do you?) which has not helped, but I think being on all the antid's has helped.  the interferon crap wanes over time thru treatment.

[belle19]

i don't get angry, i just start crying.  my family knows not to take it personally as do my friends.  good luck to you.  hang in there.  it will pass.  belle

[rockymoe]

My husband has ben amazing and unfourtunately he gets it. I also tell  people close to me if I snap at you or start crying for no reason it's the meds. Oh I am definately in Heppy tx land. I walk to another room to get something and I have no clue what it is I'm looking for.
Also I'm not into th holiday thing at all. I have an ultra sound in the AM , Labs(12 week VL) and Drs. appointment in PM. We plan to do a little shopping done' My Mother sent my husband a Bah Humbug bomber hat. I asked him if I could wear it shopping.
This to will pass!

[orphanedhawk]

First of all, I'm glad the chant is working for you.

One last comment from me.
Today when I mentioned my irritablity to my hepatologist, he said it could be a sign of depression, and asked whether I'd like something to help smooth things out. Then he offered to write me a script for mild antidepressants.
I passed but thought I'd share this for others.
If it gets to be too  much, you could go get some ADs.

[his3707]

If I could only remember to count to 10...  But then what?  wait 10 sec. before you blow? That would give me 10 more counts to really think of some good evil things to say.    Even though no one else does, sometimes I like being assertive and sarcastic, pissy, moody, angry, a fighter, control freak, at least now I have a reason.  What Am I going to do when treatment is over?  Like can-do, will I miss it some, the current new me?  will this current person stay and meld with the old me, (that would not be good at all) or maybe the real me I have never met,  will emerge .  I will be a passive, cool under pressure, genius,  that loves all the people, even my own teenagers and husband all the time,  a super mom that can juggle it all with a smile. !  That would be a dream come true.   Im not holding my breath.  But I am not dying my hair during treatment, i figure its a good time to see what I would like like all natural,   Yeah, thats me a naturally  beautiful old gal.  No one I know thinks its a good idea, they keep saying to me,  its the meds that making you think this way,  you'll get over it as they roll their eyes

[ann61]

@ frijole:  Well things have been a little better this week.  The "be nice" mantra really seems to be working.  I am trying really hard not to cry since that tends to last for days.  

@ orphanedhawk:  Of course if my car was stolen, I would not only be really angry and irritable but I would also cry.

To everyone else, thanks for your support and understanding.  I have apologized to everyone adn tried to explain the situation.  I walk around now saying "be nice, be nice" which seems to help and puts anyone around me on notice of my state of mind.  Usually we end up laughing which is sure better than saying unkind things.

After reading these posts and other info on peg rage (lovingly referred to as riba rage), I know it really isn't me.......just call my Sybil!

[roostermom]

I was so irritable the first time I did 48 weeks of peg/ ribo. This time in triple tx with Incevik I went on Lexapro and have had no agitation or irritability

[jerialice]

oops still too froggy to engineer these post thingies and the post to OH was supposed to be on another page......
oye come va?
so anyway it is irritating when one can not function as normal, so that, along with the meds- double trouble!!

[orphanedhawk]

Thanks guys,
Good news~my car was found, undamaged.
OH :)

[jerialice]

so sorry about that- hope you have insurance and not too much sentimental in the trunk!
prayers.......

[flcyclist]

OH, sorry to hear this.  Hope it is resolved quickly and you find it, or end up with something better.  

[JasmineT]

Let the tears roll.  Sounds like the thing to do tonight.  So sorry.  Good chance they will find it soon.  Hopefully in good shape.  You can deal tomorrow, tonight just let it out.  It will be ok.

[orphanedhawk]

So, we go off over the least little thing but now that my car is stolen, all I want to do is cry.

[JasmineT]

Oh, I do think it helps a little to eat healthy snacks throughout the day instead the 3 meal routine.  Avoid sugar or too much carb.  Don't forget to eat and still drink water.  I find I forget eating and drinking more often now that incivek is done.

[JasmineT]

I think when I was on the incivek I had a lot more bobble head, brain fog, and felt to sick to notice the rage as much.  Now that I am off, the rage is more noticeable when people/things annoy me.  Am really worried about it at work.  Not sure counting to ten is going to work but will give it a try.  I also want to cry at pictures of puppy dogs, touching moments, or even caring posts on this forum more often than would be normal.  Definitely having the memory issues although I am not sure I just notice it more now that I'm off incivek.

Maybe we need the incivek back to help us Itch, daze, and sleep through the remaining weeks too. Lol

[can-do-man]

frijole, yikes girl, sounds like there might be a few less deductions for some people this year..... That will teach em...:)

Ann, usually before i got to 10 i couldn't remember why i was counting.

Oh the fun of treating, makes you kinda miss is sometimes.... NOT
Hang in there people!!!

can it cando

[frijole]

Why am I always the last to find out about these things? Jeesh - for years I have been blaming the riba for the anger and the mood swings, and now you tell me it's the interferon?  I just don't think I will be able to change my rage against the riba, sorry.

Ann61 - I feel exactly like you - I am on week 15 with VIC.  Boy have I been wanting to lay into some people lately. I have been doing lots of tongue biting!  Everyone, and I do mean everyone gets on my nerves lately.

I have been having some judgement lapses.  Like a few days ago I made a U-turn at a corner (to go back home and get my VIC) and I couldn't make the turn in one swing and a car was turning into the street.  Oh boy - now, unless I am going to work, I let hubby drive.   Yesterday I decided to not go to a luncheon meeting for a group that I am in and got a call -- I was supposed to call for a vote on a budget.  Yikes - how could I forget that!   Also lately I have been taking my meals at the times I take my riba, only to remember an hour or later that I forgot the med.  I don't need these types of problems.
frijole

[ann61]

Thanks everyone for your comments and suggestions.  I like the counting to 10 and "be nice" mantra.  I certainly have to try those.  Like crossroadsec I also spend a lot of time crying, but at least that doesn't hurt anyone..  And like livinontheedge, I then feel sorry for myself.  Physically I am so much better.  Emotionally, I am a wreck.   If I can't get my head wrapped around this, I think I will do permanent damage to a very important relationship.  Why is it we tend to take things out on the ones closest to us?

Again heartfelt thanks and I promise to try to be a nicer person.