Losing it

[powerbuilt]

Hi All    I am in my 7th week and feels like I am starting to loose it ....  I have been blowing up at nothing and my poor wife has taken as much as she can ... I told her I was getting off the meds,but she talk me out of it ...   I called my doctor and we both went to see him and explain what was happening, he talk to us to find out what was happening and has giving me some pills to calm me down... I hope this works ...  Anybody else have this ploblem

[Trinity4]

Agree jt, sometimes it's just better being by myself.  Not all the time, but certainly necessary for me when things become chaotic.  Can't hide at work, but home is my safe haven and if I need solitude I hibernate for a while.  Works well for me too.

[jt57]

Our poor family members!!!!  All I can say is , what a roller coaster ride this has been.  Week 30, and I cannot believe any of my family still talks to me  (come to think of it, a couple of them don't!)

I do think when the tx is done, we will all be back to normal.  But, like the others, I have found that just being by myself is the best thing for me.  I get very frustrated trying not to hurt others feelings, and if I am alone, I don't have to worry about that.  My mood swings have been this way since about wk 5.  Around wks 20-24 I absolutely hated everyone and everything, and did alot of crying.  But then, that was also during the holidays.  Who knows.....

Hang in there.  Know that it is normal.  and know that it will pass...

Jean

[nygirl7]

Powerbuilt whatever you do just don't buy a gun! Little old blue haired lady drivers made me CRAZY on treatment and I probably would have popped them all if I'd had one!

On a serious not what you are experiencing is very common and I found that the ADs did help me however ribarage is such a powerful thing to try to overcome because it just jumps on you and all of a sudden you are yelling and so mad that others tend to look at you like you are insane (which temporarily I guess you are).

It should level out a bit in time once you are more acclimated to it all (the meds, the stress, the physical and mental changes) and lessen pretty drastically.  You are in the hard beginning weeks now where your body really has so much to overcome to get used to being poisoned every week.  Try to hang on and practice some good old fashion counting skills standing in the corner (heck never really worked for me but it might for you) and just talk things through with your wife and make sure to apologize.  Truthfully saying to your family "I'm so sorry these meds are so difficult it's not you and I apologize" really DOES help.  A lot.

Good luck.

[powerbuilt]

Thanks for all the responce...    I will try exercising more to keep my mind more occupied...    Granitekonig, the fish oil in capsule or liquides.. My wife must have heard you ,she went to stay at my dauthers in Buffalo for a few days. Like you said nice to have a little space once in a while, the meds he gave were co-quetiapine...  I think your right about the Riba rage, I try to control but it comes on so fast and the damage is done... We talk it over at the Doctors office and told my wife if she can handle my rage for a little while, I always come gr
awling back for forvigeness..That funny Portann about the lady like cover and the swearing, your right it is mighty d-damn stuff,I use to boxe and took lots of punches from middleweights,but these punches are much harder to take from the tx, they just keep coming at you...ML I am going out for a walk soon as I finnished this post. I could talk to my brothers till im blue in the face and they will not understand what I am talking about, thats why it is so important to have you people to talk to  who are going through some of the same problems and can relate to ...        

[Kathy73]

I think I know exactly how you and your wife feel. I work in a stressfull environment and started to feel like I was getting angry at the strangest things. I was ready to pick a fight with my husband all the time and he's easy to get along with. I've always been an exacting type of person but I was overwhelming even myself. My doctor's office was screwing up with medication and appointments and I let the doctor, his assistant and the office manager have it with both barrels! I didn't pull any punches. Now that I think of that part, it was a good idea. The doctor was more than happy to put me on Celexa and it has been a night and day difference. I can still give it to the doctor's office with both barrels, but I'm not dwelling on slights and injuries that aren't important and I'm having a wonderful relationship with my husband. I had taken wellbutrin to quit smoking before but it took my personality away and my husband and I didnt' like the zombie it turned me into.

[Mr Liver]

Sorry the meds are hitting you hard emotionally/mentally. Its a common side effect of the treatment, and the most common reason for tx discontinuance (33%). Tx can bring some to their knees, and when it happens  it is frequently the neuropsychiatric effects that are produced as a result of the meds. This tx can cause depression through chemical interactions within the brain. I'm not sure if your doctor rx'ed something quick acting such as an anti-anxiety med or an anti-depressant. The latter could take  several weeks before a therapeutic level is reached, while the former will not help with depressive disorders which are strongly associated with the symptoms you described. What is the name of the rx he gave you ? If it's not an AD I seriously recommend you get some , and pronto.   Anti-anxiety meds may be useful short-term for some, but they are not good for depression and, in fact, they can increase it over time.

Do everything you can to lessen the effects of depression. Twenty minutes of sunlight minimum per day, light excercise, use of sleep aids if disruption is a problem , eat as well as possible, and do not insulate yourself and withdraw. This only feeds it. Best of luck to both of you.  ML

[portann]

It's great that you went to see the doctor about this. What did he prescribe?

Your wife and you will both learn techniques over the coming months to cope better and to stay out of each other's way when needed. My husband is a pro at handling me now but it was a big surprise to him when I blew my ladylike cover at about seven weeks into treatment. The biggest shock to him was how I started to swear. I never had during all our decades together. Yay, interferon, mighty d-amn stuff.

[IMstacie]

I'm on ADs, lexapro, 5 mg (very low dose) and I have no emotional problems.  I'm just going to stay on it until after tx.

[Max60]

I agree about exercise during tx. It can be done if one was fit prior to beginning. I think I saw the positive results of bike riding when the CBC's came back.

good luck

[CMcH]

Some people call it Riba rage and I think it is fairly common. With the fatigue, anemia, and rash I feel like I am very moody and easily irritated. I am on AD's I don't know if they help but when I feel short tempered I try to put myself on time out in my bedroom. I have said that I wish I could go away into a cave and do this TX without having to manage my family. Have your wife read a few threads on this and know that this is temporary.

[granitekonig]

Are you on ad's?

You live with somone. Which means you're always being rubbed raw by thier presence, be it good natured or bad.

Get out of the house. You need to have your space. I keep suggesting fish oil to people and really do think it works to enhance mood.

But don't take my word for it. Look it up on the internet. I'm in a jolly mood almost all the time, even on tx. Good luck.

[spcecst2]

I went thru week seven three times!!!!!!!!!!!!! Even though many may not agree, I found that some very strenuous (work up a sweat kind of strenuous) work or exercise will do wonders for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I know from experience that sometimes all you want to do is "NOTHING" but it can be done, even when doing more than the standard dosing!!!!!!!!!!!! With and without AD's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!