I think I infected my family w/ HSV I don't know which type! Extremely Depressed!

[calii89]

My IGG results were 0.90 at a 6 week post encounter gave unprotected Oral to a guy. I went through the whole flu,soar throat, runny nose, chapped lips...which still haven't heal and its been almost 3 months! I've been having lots of pimples zits and boils all over my body especially back & face. I've been having some joint pain on legs and arms. I'm also developing these mosquito like bites on my arm which itch if I scratch them and turn red but tend to slightly fade if I leave them alone. My cheeks and upper lips have tingling crawling sensation. My Eyes burn and eye blood vessels turn red. I saw my mom scratching her eye about a month and a half ago...that's how I started too with sneezing and she's sneezing hear and there now too. She also has pimples on her face like me and she''s complaining that she's having a lot of flea bites all over her body. I don't think they're flea bites and I'm dying inside!!! :'( My dad has been having the same symptoms and back ache. I love them so much and knowing I hurt them is killing me inside! I don't think I can live like this. I will be testing on the 30th and if the results come positive I think that's the end of me. I don't want to hurt anybody else by spreading this Horrible disease!! I feel like a Toxic person spreading this disease!:'(

[calii89]

On June 13 my test results were 0.89 and I retested at a different clinic on July  11 and the test results were 0.90 6 week post exposure for both Hsv1 & Hsv2 but I was also on Acyclovir because the nurse gave it to me to make me feel better.  I read on a post where Terri Warren commented that Acyclovir could interpreter with the test results. I've also been reading a lot of posts and they describe exactly what i'm going through.  I can live with the fact that I damaged my self but the fact that I'm hurting the ones I love is a different story. This Virus must be a new kind of virus because it seems really contagious! I feel Toxic! and I can tell it's spreading all  over my body!I have stopped the Acyclovir and will be retesting on the 30th which would be 12 week post exposure. I feel like I got both Hsv1 & Hsv2 because it feels like I'm breaking out a lot and only have like 1 or 12 days that I feel better and then it starts again and on the last post they told me I could have different intervals for each one. I'm in a horrible position right now and it's killing me inside...I'm giving up.

[GuitarRox]

I read through your previous thread.  I wish you would do the same.  First, you are not positive for herpes.  Your given results are confusing but at .90, that is the bottom number for equivocal and is not positive. Why you are now convinced that everything is herpes is probably due to anxiety as you don't have herpes.  Several times people said, on your other thread, that what you describe doesn't sound like herpes and doesn't follow the pattern of herpes.  Please internalize that.  Say it over and over.  And there was a great comment made there by another person that stated : you aren't a walking plague.  This fear that flea bites on your families body is due to your negative herpes status is not being rational.  Your depression and anxiety are getting the better of you.  And I'm sorry you are feeling this because I'm sure it is terrible.  Is there someone you can talk to about anxiety and depression?  Counselor (even at school if you are a minor), doctor, etc.  I think you need some help with this especially since you are making statements like this is the end of me.  Even those with full on herpes type 2 diagnosis live full and happy lives. They live with spouses even having sex with them and can prevent their partner from getting it by using a condom.  So, you are not spreading anything to your family. You can feel better if you focus on the real problem here which is your anxiety.  That is my recommendation to you.  Hope you feel better soon.