This is fine, but instead of doing all this research on a preventable infection you don't have, are you getting counseling to help your anxiety? That's where your focus needs to go. You have anxiety, hon. If they found a cure for herpes tomorrow, that wouldn't cure your anxiety. Your anxiety would find something else to focus on.
I have herpes. It doesn't affect me nearly as much as your anxiety affects you, it seems. Please, find a counselor. Your mental health is just as important as your physical health.