You can't choose to be gay or straight, it sounds like you might be gay or at least bi-sexual.
Over exposure to pornography at your age - at any age, but especially as a teenager leads to desensitization. Young people who start watching porn tend to keep looking for more and more extreme porn to get the same dopamine high. It's actually common for straight people to watch gay porn as part of this process ( or extreme stuff - stuff that's not part of what they are normally interested in).
If gay porn turns you on, maybe you're gay. But if you are so young and the gay porn comes after a long time of watching porn, it could be part of the process of pornography addiction. Look at yourbrainonporn ******* for some science behind pornography's effects on people.
Regular pornography usage at such a young age has various effects, and you might be well served to take a break from it (warning: it will be difficult for you to get off of it) and see what your non-porn brain is interested in - in the real world. Only then will you be able to see how your natural instincts are, and what you are interested in (men, women, or both). Maybe you are straight, maybe you are gay, but that is based on what you are in real life, not what porno turns you on after a few years of looking at a lot of porn. Good luck!
ok thanks now would you please tell me a way to take a break from watching gay porn?
BTW is it possible that i have developed HOCD?
please help! i'm suffering.
Seek a therapist to help you. Nothing we can really tell you how to stop doing something...just stop then.
It's best to know first if you are gay or not. Until you admit it to yourself, it would be hard. It's not easy to live a life that you don't want. If you're gay then so be it! If it's not culturally accepted in your country then move out to another where you can find freedom to be what you are. If you don't want to then, you have to live a lie.
do you find yourself attracted to men? or is it just the porn?
Hello, I want to change too. Maybe we can both help each other if you want.
Dude, relax your not gay desire and action are two different things, maybe you watch gay porn because straight Porn has become boring, no matter the case, your aren’t really gay until you go out and have physical relations with another man