I agree with linda above. Also, there are some things that (while very hard to do in your current mood) could be helpful if you can do them.
1. Regular morning schedules - whatever time you go to bed try getting up at the same time every day. For extra credit go outside and get some sun and a little exercise in the morning (or some cloud... it doesn't matter that much whether it is sunny or cloudy). This will help stabilize your circadian (daily) biorhythms, which in turn will help your mood.
2. Regular social contact - talk to a good friend about how you are feeling once or twice a week to not get disconnected from others and have a place you connect with people every morning (we call this coffee shop therapy).
3. Mindfulness - this practice is probably the most quickly effective but also the hardest, to get started try downloading an MP3 by Jon Kabat-Zinn from Amazon.
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If you phone and ask to be on the cancellation list that may help get you in quicker. It has helped for me. The other thing is do they know how serious it is? Quite often they have space in their schedules for emergency appointments. I am not sure if you are bad enough to be considered an 'emergency'.
As for going off your meds, you are not alone, it happens a lot with people, not just people with bipolar but any chronic medical condition. You start feeling better, think you are healed or don't need the drug, go off the drug, and then end up in hot water. Best to learn your lesson quickly as sometimes the drugs you go off of don't work as well the second time around. But you certainly are not alone in doing this.
If you can get a referral from the psychiatrist to a talk doc (psychologist, social worker, psychiatric nurse) it may help you cope with some of the fall out from your episode like the ruined friendships and romantic relationship. Some of those friendships may be salvagable once you are back on medication if you explain what happened.