m very concerned on my recent change in behaviour that has been seen by my best friend whos sister is bipolar. I personally dont understand why it feels so dark, low and depressed then im feeling high, elated and manic. Sonetimes i experience these at the same time. Im happy and sad at the same time. I feel agitation and irritation, frequent thoughts about death and how it may feel. Ive spent so much money, wear bright clothes, changed career that turned out for the worst, people dont understand me because i talk to fast and trail off topic. I get very anxious and dont feel tired and loss of apetite. Ive experienced these over the last couple of months but didnt take any notice of it.I wrote about how i feel everyday in the jounal entries in my profile for over 2 weeks to see whats happening but i dont seem to get the jist. Ive noticed that things like this have happened briefly months before i began tracking myself. Im a 17 year old female and im scared and worried that something could be wrong with me. Please help me out. If you want to read my diary entries i'd be more than happy to post them to you. Please help me to find out what may be wrong with me before it becomes the death of me.