Feeling awful that I'm feeling good

[MisterTimC]

Well, I've been hanging out here for a couple of months, and you all have been so helpful while the Drs are trying to figure me out, but now that I'm feeling somewhat better, I feel really bad because I know there are so many of you dear friends who feel so awful.

I kind of don't want to jinx myself, but the improvement has come very slowly but steadily over the past few weeks. I don't know why, but then I don't know what got each of my two attacks started and I don't know why the first one cleared up and I don't know why the second one is clearing up. Now I'm not complaining mind you, and I'm not up to full strength yet, but after feeling so lousy for 4 months, I have to admit that it feels good to feel somewhat better. I've still got some stupid tinnitus, and some occasional brain zzapps, and bit of dizziness when I shift my eyes, but my legs actually feel like my legs.

Today I walked two blocks to the post office and I made it back to my office without any trouble. Fortunately, I made it between rain showers! It wasn't long ago when I could look down the street to the post office and feel like there was no way in the world I could make down there and back; and a flight of stairs looked really scary. I still take stairs slowly and carefully, but now it's more for the sake of the exercise, and I do feel like I'm getting stronger.

My first wave lasted 5 months, then there was about 5 months respite before the second wave. Of course, at this point only God knows if I'll ever have another attack, but I sure hope I won't. If I don't have another wave this will all remain a mystery, and people will think I'm crazy, but oh well, I've known that for a long time. Except that now I have a bunch of documentation that shows that my head is neither empty nor full of rocks.

And hey, if any of you local Portlanders need a hand with chores or fixing your computer or anything, send me a message, I'd be happy to help, as long as I'm able.

TimC

[Guitar_grrrl]

Woo Hoo!  Go Tim!  I'm so glad you're feeling better!  Let's hope this lasts a good lllloooonnnnnnnggggg time!  

Happy Holidays to you and everyone in Portland - one of my favorite cities anywhere!

[wiggles94]

So great to hear that you are feeling well Tim!  It's great that you are so appreciative of how well you are feeling, and wanting to share that with others.

Continue onward and upward!

Happy holiday!

[sllowe]

Hey there,

Now don't you go feeling badly about us! hahah
Enjoy it. My messes usually last 5 months too. Hope this sticks!
-shell