Exhausted

[ShadowsSister]

It's not really a question, I am sorry if I am posting this in the wrong place. I am so tired of the pain. The morphine pump doesn't hit the bladder and colon pain. I am tired of waiting for tomorrow. I wish I could just bring this to an end. But my Children and Grand Children wouldn't understand, and I know I don't have a right to be so selfish. But I am tired of living with this daily pain, it is stopping me from having any quality of life. Of it weren't for those I would be leaving to suffer because of my actions... I can't even finish that thought.
Tonight I found myself looking up suicide on line. No answers found... I know what depression feels like and this doesn't feel like depression, I just feel desperate.

[Lauri8967]

I just wanted to join the rest in saying Im glad you are here too, and that you have found the support we all need so much.  These diseases are too hard to fight alone.
You are such a power of example to me in battling your disease for so long and still finding the time to be a Mom and a Grandma...
You are in my thoughts and prayers tonight...
Love Lauri
Get some rest tonight my friend - youve had an emotional day....xoxo

[ShadowsSister]

Thank you sweetie, you are so kind and giving.. I am here for you too...Have a restful evening and a love filled day tomorrow..I'll post more later,,,HOTW...Shadow(DJ)

[ShadowsSister]

Sweetie, you being there has helped so much, knowing that others do understand and that I am not alone in this part of my life any longer means so much more than I can express. , Janette hope you have a restful evening and a beautiful, love filled day tomorrow..HOTW...Shadow (DJ)

[Janette2836]

Sending prayers your way.  You have given me encouragement since I have been here on this site & I just wish I could make that pain just disappear.  Take care.

Janette

[wonko]

I'm really glad you found this place, too.  The type of support here is very special.  

Here we can share things we can't (or won't, or don't know how to) share with our family, loved ones, and doctors.  We can come here 24/7, and help is never far away.

The medical info and advice we can offer each other "patient to patient" is how a lot of us first came here, but we stay for the awesome people!

[ShadowsSister]

I will make and keep that promise... I really don't know how I went so long with out a support group... Now I have "The Best" all of you are now a part of my family..
Have a love filled day... I'll write more later..HOTW