Feeling a little Washed out

[Quixotic1]

Hi, Friends, you may or may not have noticed that I havedn't been around much.  Slipping into a depression of sorts, I think.  Even my raccoons noticed.  One spent the whole evening with just his nose and eyes in the room, chirtling at me every once in a while, like he was just keeping me company.

I'm in my 6th UTI since they began in June.  They always clear up nicely on the Bactrim, but are always back in just about a month.  The incontinence is worsening, and I didn't think that was possible.  The urine is now sippiong out with out any forewarning and it's happening in all positions except lying back.  I went through 5 (five) changes of clothes in the last 24 hours and the washing machine is getting a work-out.  I don't know if the self cath'ing is contributing to the infections, but I'm going to stop it and see if they is a relationship.

Right now, I'm clearing my room in preparation for mopping it - again.  Compared to pain, this is nothing, and I hate to whine about it, but I am soooo tired of this whole process.  Right now I just don't want to think about MS and have been spending more time with a social knitting group.  But, I'm even having accidents there and it is a basic drag.  They are wonderful women with whom I feel totally safe.  They understand the problem and are gently accepting without being solicitous.  Still, it's a problem I can never leave at home.

The depression makes me want to shrink from the things I need to do - like continuing with the advanced part of the incontinence physical therapy.  They might want to try me on an E-Stim program, but what needs "stimulating" is the outlet sphincter.  Apparently it left without a forwarding address.  Maybe a cork and some Super Glue would work.

So, give me a few more days.  I'll be back, you know I always am.  You have great minds and companions here and the info flow is so righteous!  I'm proud to be a part of you all.

Welcome to all the new faces.  And to all of you who have messaged me with questions and comments - one- Thank You and two - I will answer.

Quix  :((

[rendean]

You are always missed. I 'm sorry it is because if continuing urinary issues. I'm  thankful for you that the knitting group is providing a great diversion from the frustrating routine.

Come back when you are ready. Missing your wit and wisdom!!

Ren

[marymoto]

hope you get feeling a bit better soon. hugs

[Sarahsmom46]

You are always there for us thick and thin and we are there for you as well.  Take some time, regroup, rejuvinate, realize that life sometimes just gets in the way, and come back when you can.

I will be thinking about you and looking forward to when you are able to make it back on the forum.

Keep being the  tough cookie that you are.

Julie

[suzsibs]

Quix
Look at all these lovely messages and know we are all here for you, as you are for us.
The knitting circle sounds like a really good way to keep busy and socialise.
Maybe you could knit yourself a mop at your knitting circle ;o) if you leave a strand free I'm sure your cats will oblige and drag it round the room for you. Keep your lovely smile and sense of humour and don't let the demons drag you down, it's a long way back up.
You take care of yourself.
Suz

[luvsummer]

I hope you are feeling better soon.  Take care.

Luvsummer

[MonkeyMom4]

We always notice when you're away!

I hope you can find the answers to all your UTIs!!!  That is NOT fun!

Get well soon.

Smile =D

-Kelly