Hey Nat -
How long was the mild 1st one? Don't panic (I know, easier said than done), I just know that everything is worse when the symptom is so scary it sets off all your adrenline. Try to keep that low best you can....
Attacks are like MS, they are different for all. Some get a leg that doesn't work, and it's an attack, some slurred speech, and it's an attack. Like me, some of us this is the general rule, and just chronic daily living with MS.
Saying it's not very predictable, so go slooooooooooow - k?
I think I am entering a huge flair. The numbness in my stomach has turned into my entire abdomen (from groin to breasts) and around being completely numb. My calve muscles are sore so I'm struggling to walk and now my numb hands have started cramping.
Each day in the past week things have gotten progressively worse and now I'm worried that the cramping legs and hands might start getting painful.
I'm working with 2 neuros. One ordered me a 3 day iv course of solumedrol; which I'm terrified to take because of the suicidal feelings I had on a pretty small dose of prednisone over 4 days in december. The other neuro who I saw today says that he recommends the steroids but it's my choice if I want to avoid them, and he prescribed be gabapentin to start today.
How long will these symptoms get worse before they stabilize, since this feel like it's gonna be my first major attack. :( I am struggling to type and walk at this point.
Anyone have any thoughts? I'm just so scared.
Natalie -
Sorry you're dealing with what seems like chaos right now...
The steroids... well, I'm in the same boat as you, I have pretty negative reactions to even oral pred. The steroids only reduce the time the flare occurs, doesn't really treat anything, really just makes you feel better! Does not reduce the damage a flare will do if it is a flare. If you're sensitive to steroids, I'd stand firm and say no to the roids.
If you're symptoms are lasting a while and kinda worse on some days then others, you might want to consider there is a trigger that is bothering things. I've posted this before as a suggestion to other people, but think about keeping a journal with what you do, where you go, what you eat, even the weather. Before I had my confirmed dx (they also thought I was CNS lyme, even started rocephin), I would have a couple days a week where I was beyond miserable. I started keeping a journal to see what patterns developed and it did not take long to see gluten was no longer my friend :) To this day, I cannot have any wheat / gluten products, even soup with flour to thicken will cause me nervous system distress - buzzing, numbness, tingling, muscle spasms, etc....
I recently thought I was having another flare, but the symptoms were not really new, just more intense and everything was acting up along with fatigue that just would not give up. Kept wondering if it was the weather and my neuro confirmed that cold can be a trigger for symptoms. Wasn't a flare, no new lesions and I had same physical eval, but just felt like crap! So, learned that cold weather will bother me as much as heat in the summer.
Stress was a trigger for both of my flares. I know it sounds easy to say, but try to reduce as much stress in your life as possible.... wherever your stress comes from.
As for meds, its a personal decision.... most of the meds have about the same effectiveness, tho many neuros like one over another. I joked that a neuro that has a strong preference has a great sales rep and gets the best kick backs for pushing that drug :) Also, keep in mind, you can change meds... if you start copax for a year and your next MRIs show new lesions, then change up to an interferon med. Or vice versa, if you start on rebif and its causing too many problems with supressing the immune system or the depression, then switch over to see how copax does for you.
I had about 5 months to do reading between when MS was first discussed as a maybe and final dx, so was overly informed :) One thing I kept hearing from everyone was that there is no wrong decision when picking a DMD.... the important thing is to start as soon as possible to slow progression as much as you can.
Good luck with your decision! And keep posting and venting :) I know it helped me alot in the first month of realizing it was MS and dealing with what was going on.
Jen
I would listen to your neuro and start treatment. Copaxone is not going to hurt you even if down the road they decide it is something else like Lyme Disease. Always err on the side of caution, you could prevent a lot of serious problems down the road. Take care.
Daphne
Hi Natalie,
I'm afraid the more you worry, the harder it will be for you to dive in and treat the MS. The neuros are smart, experienced, and would not dx you with MS without strong evidence. It's not a dx anyone takes lightly for sure.
You could be in a flare, or you could be experiencing something else. Not everyone responds to steroid treatment :( So, that can definitely happen.
Your 2nd opinion said MS too it seems from what you mention here. I can say that the sooner MS is treated, the better. I have listened to docs that have said the interferons are stronger, but ultimately everyone is different. And, while one DMD may work for one MSer, it may not for another. They all have proven effectiveness. All you can do is try one.
Betaseron has a super long track record. And, if it were me I'd go with what the specialist said. But, that's just me.
Do what is best for you. And, in the end if you are still uncomfortable just tell the doc why you are not convinced. I'm sure he/she will have no problem telling you why you were dx'd with MS. And, this may reassure you.
Sorry you are struggling with this. I can relate a bit because I too thought I did not have MS - felt I didn't fit the bill. But, I've learned alot since then, and I feel comfortable with what I'm doing for it now. If in the future something else pops up that is the true culprit of my damage, then I'll deal with it then. What if's can make you batty :) Don't do that to yourself :)
Hang in there, we're here for you.