OT Cancer

[HVAC]

My Cancer has spread. It is in the Spleen and has grown in two months. The doctor says once it hits the spleen it is in the blood and can go anywhere. I am out of the study. I start back on one of my original chemos. They wanted me on both original but I want my hair for xmas.

Alex

[Poppy7402]

Oh Alex, I'm so sorry to hear that your cancer has again spread.  What a horrible monster you are living with.  I can understand your wanting your hair for Christmas as this is not too far away.

Best wishes


Poppy

[tingletingle]

Dear Alex
I feel profoundly sad to read your development. I just popped in to answer a PM and your post has hit me in the guts. Although we have very different religious beliefs we share a disease and a love of animals, painting, and pushing on inspite of our circumstances.

You have been inspirational to me and I'm sure so many other people on the forum for  the courage, wisdom, humour and humility that you display in your posts.

Your condition certainly sounds serious and may you make the most of whatever time you have left in loving those closest and letting them show their love for you by allowing them to doing things for you.

You are one heck of lady. A giant of the forum. I wish you happiness, health and hair for Christmas.
Blessings
Alex

[Theresalp]

Alex, I am so sorry to hear this. In the short time I have been on this community site your input has helped me so very much.

Just know that I will be here checking in if you ever just want to spill your feelings out in writing. I am sure that along with myself there are so many on here that will help cheer you on and be your online strength as best as we can.

I wish I was half the woman you are. Hugs
Theresa

[torikat32]

Alex sorry to hear about the cancer and having to leave the trial. But you my dear are a fighter and know you arent going to back down from this one.


Keeping you in my prayers

kat

[kwarendorf]

You are still my Hero :-)

Alex's version of "All I Want For Christmas"

"All I want for Christmas is to have my hair,
Have my hair..."

[SarahL2491]

Alex, you are in my prayers and I have seen you beat these odds before!  Perhaps it will get lost in the blood "interstate" without a map!

We are all thinking of you.  

[karryon55]

I'm really sorry to hear this news Alex. I hope you have your hair for Christmas as well as lots of love & happiness.

Hugs,

Karry.

[supermum_ms]

Oh babe, not good news but your strong.....YOU can beat this!!

**********************HUGS*****************

If you change your mind and think you'd rock being a strawberry blonde.........let me know because without reservation, I'd give you my hair!

Hugs............JJ

[beema36]

So sorry to hear this news Alex! Praying for you

[mikeysmom1995]

Oh Alex, I am so sorry to hear this news. You are a true fighter so keep fighting. We are all in your corner. My best thoughts and prayers are with you.

HUGS barb

[Joiedecour]

Alex, so sorry to read this news, and especially that you are out of the study which seemed to be such a positive thing for you. If anyone is strong enough, it has to be you. I hope you have the hairiest of Christmases in the best possible way. We need you here, keep up the fight. Hugs.

[Princepaso]

My heart and soul reaches out to you and your family
And all family animals
Your experience strength and hope are second to none
Always
K

[zerodegrees]

I am so sorry to hear this.  I will keep you in my prayers.

[johnniebear]

you've always been so strong here,   I really don't have the right words to give you comfort other than you should  know how many people wish  you the best and some how hope  you can still beat this.

Sending prayers and   Im Cussing at the damn cancer....


Your friend
JB

[HVAC]

Yesterday I took Fiona for an hour walk then we had an hour of training. We have a neat class called "Dog about town". We train in the city with cafes, stores. people, wheelchairs, canes, cars, stairs and other dogs. The first to classes she barked loudly since she is deaf and was on two legs most of the night. My arms feeled like I had been wresting. This class she under control. She even did well in down stay. Mike had Grady he did really well.

I am working on self compassion something I am not good at.

Alex

[nyangel60]

Alex I so sorry at this unfortunate news. Keep strong and you are in my prayers. (((HUGS)))

[yousyous8]

Oh Alex, I'm so sorry to read this. Please stay strong. If anyone can beat this, you can! You are always so positive and helpful.
I'll keep you in my prayers. Best best wishes!

[calamfred]

I, too hated hearing this latest news. You're such a source of strength and inspiration to us, selfishly I not only hate hearing it for all of us who you've uplifted. But more importantly I hate it for you, your loved ones, and your fur "babies".

As I've said since I "met" you, you're a tough gal, and I know you'll face this head on. I wish I had half the strength I see in you.

And remember it's ok to have some times of "Right now I don't feel like or want to be strong, dangit!". We all are after all, only human...

Sending healing thoughts your way, and also praying that you definitely find the compassion for yourself that you so freely share with others... You deserve it!
Calam and hubby

[HVAC]

The Doctor felt she had to tell me I was getting the Placebo. I was no the placebo effect and that really blew it for me. I was doing so well for over a year. She said it was the Chemo the Doxil. I could have gone in only once a month not had all the extra tests like CT Scans every two months and the weekly screw ups by my nurse. I so wanted yell at my nurse with every screw up. But I might be on the miracle drug, But I was not.

Alex

[Cache916]

Alex,

I have only been in this community for a few hours and just saw your post. My heart goes out to you. I pray for your strength and that God keep your family in his protective arms.

[karryon55]

Alex I am so so sorry. I wouldn't have thought that the doctors would be able to disclose that sort of information from the clinical trial but maybe I'm wrong.

I guess that says a lot about who you are Alex with being on the placebo but you still managed to get so far with your cancer. Please don't get discouraged by what the doctor said rather turn it around & see how well you have done through all of this.

My heart goes out to you & I can only imagine how hard this is for you.

((((HUGS)))) Karry.

[4happygnomes]

I'm so sorry to hear that your cancer has spread, even throughout your own struggles you have reached out to help others.  You are a true blessing!  The power of possibilities appear to have helped you during the clinical trial, hold unto that faith and may it carry you forward.  You have a lot of people who are thinking and praying for you!  

[Dagun]

Dear Alex, I´m so sorry to read this..I have not been here for quite some time now and thought I should see how everyone is doing and then this is the first I see. I can´t believe it was a Placebo all the time and you were getting better. Then it was just your strong will that got you so far.

I know you will find a new way to hold the cancer back as long as you can, you are such a fighter. I have never known anyone like you, as strong and as focused on keeping the spirit up. I´m sending you warm hugs from over the Atlantic and wishing for a better outcome in your next checkup.
My best wishes for you always,
Your friend,
Dagun    

[SarahL2491]

it aint over yet…….Alex is still with us and there are still miracles to be had……….hang in there my friend, hugs from Diesel too