Quixotic

[Momzilla]

I didn't want to intrude on your last post, because I really am not part of the forum as you know it.  I JUST sort of jumped in as you were having trouble with your double vision, or perhaps your depression.    I almost feel like I know you, in a way, though, as a quixotic heroin of this forum ~~  idealistic, and caught up in the romance of noble goals, such as answering every single person's every single answer when you're just not perhaps feeling up to it.

I have read many of your posts, your responses to others' posts and I am struck by how you still practice medicine from your computer.  What a wonderful service you provide so many.  I was sort of trying to glean any info I could for my own purposes, of course, but I found there are so many lovely people on this forum who do seem to connect with each other.   They all look to you for knowledge and comfort.  You have such a soft touch, as well.  Our black hole doesn't deserve a soft touch.  Don't worry about him.  Don't worry about any of us.  We are taking care of each other.  You need a break.  

I said before I haven't had trouble with anxiety, but I know depression.  It's painful.  Talk about a black hole.  I hope your sister is able to be with you to take care of you.  There are a lot of great medications available.  I don't know what role MS plays in all this;  I know you do.  Let your doctor do his thing.  Relax.  Peek in on us.  We will on you.  There is a Light.  I'm sending it your way.

God's blessings,

Christina*

[Momzilla]

Hmmmm.  I'll try that.  It feels like my throat just doesn't want to behave.  I'll give it a try.  Thanks!

Chris*

[Quixotic1]

I just thought of something I've been wanting to tell you. In one of your posts your mentioned persistent and increasing difficulties swallowing.  If we "presume" your problem is MS, I ran across a Dysphagia site which had some specific recommendations for MSer's with dysphagia.  The most interesting was to start out with something very cold and somewhat thick, like a Slurpee or a smoothie or a shake.  The cooling of the nerves facilitates conduction, and thus, easier initiation of swallow.  Just as warmth seems to cause more dysfunction.  You might try it.

Quix

[Quixotic1]

Thank you ever so much for your comment.  It came at a particluarly hard time and was said so nicely.  The renewed depression is very likely a product of the MS.  MS has a higher incidence of depression than other neurologic diseases - even ones that are more disabling.  It's not known exactly why.

I was worse being away from here, so I'm back for whatever it's worth.  Thanks again.  Quix