Would you consider an increase in cognitive problems a relapse? I am experiencing some really bad problems. I am also very busy going back to work and have not been getting enough sleep, though. However, my auditory processing is probably working at 20% and my word recall is terrible. I can hardly understand anyone talking to me or get the message of any short news segment. Even short sentences that my husband speaks to me is completely lost in translation! Especially when there's any other sound. I do have hearing loss in both ears, too. I can't afford hearing aids, as they are expensive and my insurance doesn't cover them. These symptoms are invisible but are having a profound impact. I do have some old symptoms that are creeping back in there. I do have some pain in my right foot, spasticity, muscle spasms, tremor, and extreme fatigue--but these are old symptoms. Could this be a relapse?
At work, I'm department chair and people come to see me with problems. I have to admit to myself that I cannot comprehend most of what they are saying to me. I'm starting to find myself nodding as though I'm understanding when I haven't understood a word. I've come home with sticky notes covering my laptops and books and cannot make connections to what it was about (like it didn't exist).
I know I need the sleep, but the whole reason I am staying up late is to get what I have to get done which would have normally taken only a fraction of the time to do. Actually, I should be doing it now! However, I know when I get to the task, I'll labor over the simplest of things. So, it's like a vicious circle. If I don't do the work, there's more for the next day.
I also feel like I'm in a fog, so I'm not really panicking. It's a really odd feeling . . . I know there's a problem, and I hadn't really thought about it until after a post I just responded to.
Has anyone else had similar experiences, and give me some pointers? Maybe increase my Provigil (my doctor said I can take the whole pill which I divide in half because it causes me to be jittery)? I see my doctor in September (I forget the date). I thought about giving up department chair and just teach, but my husband says to wait until after my doctor visit. However, I'm looking like I'm incompetent at my job. I have disclosed that I have MS, but I don't really feel like telling people that it's causing me not to think well (and I'm trying to teach kids to think well ????).
Sorry for the rambling, but I am extremely scatter-brained right now! Any pointers are appreciated. Oh, Terry (saveone) thank you for the website for the desktop sticky notes, I just downloaded it.
Deb