I can't understand what's wrong with me

[Luci056]

Hello everyone. I want to ask you to help me.I feel very strange and don't understand what's wrong with me.
I constantly feel tension in the muscles of my face, my face is like stone. I hardly feel the muscles raising my eyebrows, they seem to be numb. When I try to raise my eyebrows, it's like I feel resistance and they shake. I also feel that some kind of pressure is constantly being exerted on these muscles.
The muscles of the eyeballs and circular muscles are also in tension. When I try to rotate my eyes to the sides or in a circle, it feels like the muscles of the eyes are stretched, and there is also tension in the occipital muscles and neck.
I also sometimes have a burning sensation in my eyes, from which my eyelids close themselves. I use moisturizing drops at this moment, but they don't help. This burning sensation is quite strong, because of it my eye automatically closes. Sometimes you have to close this eye for a while. It cannot be controlled and it can occur at any most inopportune moment. This happens especially often in moments of nervous tension. Burning for some reason occurs more often in the right eye, and in the left eye I feel a constant tension that extends to the area around the eye, in the area of the left side of the forehead, temple and eyebrow, as well as just below the cheekbones. Tension seems to be maintained in this area, from which the left eyebrow and eyelid seem to drop slightly (there is a feeling of this).
I wish I could say that's all, but it's not. I have a feeling of tension of the long muscles of the nose and the muscles under the eye, which are responsible for the smile. Periodically, there is a persistent feeling that they are stretched and frozen in some position. I have the same feeling in all the muscles of my face throughout the day. It almost never stops. It's like my face is frozen. The muscles are constantly slightly tense and I have a feeling that I am always in some kind of emotion. Something similar to indifference, but at the same time oppressive and slightly sad. My face is always in a state where I'm not trying to show any emotions. I don't even know how to convey this feeling. Perhaps something similar happens when you have squeezed an arm or leg and after the blood supply begins to recover, you immediately feel lightness and control over this area. And my muscles seem to be stuck at the stage of tension and numbness, in which you feel them weakly and the feeling of lightness does not come in any way. I'm sorry if I'm describing it strangely, I just can't find other words, in my understanding it doesn't look like some kind of feeling. For me, this is something incomprehensible and unknown.

Along with all this, I sometimes feel like there is a fog in my head, it has become difficult for me to concentrate on something, it is difficult to realize the present moment and, most importantly, to be aware of these sensations. I don't remember how I felt when all this wasn't there. I don't know if it's okay to feel this way, or if I've just accepted it and am trying to ignore it. I don't understand why this is happening and who can help me with it. My eyesight is also rapidly deteriorating. I almost always see a seemingly limited area in front of me, the rest is all blurred and double. My eyes have become very sensitive to light and along with the fact that it is difficult for me to concentrate, my sensations become even more strange and incomprehensible.

I have been going to various doctors for a long time. So far, none of them have given me a specific reason. For the most part, they seem to ignore all these symptoms of mine and do not even try to figure it out, they say that these are the consequences of stress or alcohol consumption or an unhealthy lifestyle. I've been experiencing this for several years now and I don't know how to get to the truth.

During this time, I'm trying to figure out what's wrong with me bit by bit. I also learned that I have problems with my neck, vessels in the neck and eyes, with blood circulation in the vertebral artery, as well as with valves in the heart and pressure. Doctors are trying to treat blood pressure and heart with pills, although it seems to me that these are just the consequences of other problems and it does not help me. I haven't experienced any problems with my heart and blood pressure before, so I think it's just a symptom. Soon I will also do an X-ray of the neck and vertebral column, perhaps I will learn something else.

I understand that this may all be symptoms of anxiety, I have also studied it, read books about anxiety and so on. But the fact is that mentally I feel many times better than physically and I feel that it is these physical sensations that can drive me into anxiety. That is, in my head I don't feel anxious and I don't worry, but the sensations of my body that I can't control make me feel anxious.

I am constantly trying to do something, all sorts of exercises, vitamins, work with the psyche, relaxation, breathing practices, myofascial release, pills, dietary supplements, but this has a weak effect and only partially helps me. Then these feelings become intense again, at such moments I feel that everything is useless, my mental state also worsens until I do something again.
Please help me understand what it is and how to deal with it. It has been so long since I experienced a feeling of lightness and relaxation in my face and in my mind that I completely forgot what it feels like.