I mean "light" at the end of the tunnel
And one more thing! You must reclaim your brain and tell fear and anxiety to go "F***" off and I'm taking back control! I'm taking back my life" But the fear and anxiety might throw a big temper tantrum like a bratty child who wants their toy back and you have to keep telling fear and anxiety to literally F*** off as loud as you can and then like ignore it like a spoiled child crying in the corner and COMMIT to do your OWN thing!!!!
Your constant staring at people is a compulsion. You have too much mental chatter in your brain based on fear and anxiety leading to your compulsion for staring at people because this helps to quiet your mental chatter. I's like your a deer staring at headlights, it paralyzes you and for that moment you don't listen to the negative mental chatter in your head like the deer that doesn't notice the scary forest because he's caught up staring at the headlights. It freezes you and you can't help yourself.
Obsessive compulsive people have their brain hijacked by fear and anxiety and it runs away in the brain producing all kinds of horrible images and thoughts! The only way a person can kind of get control back of their brain from their fear and anxiety is to do compulsive actions but these actions are themselves irrational, but for that moment you trick the brain to come back to you away from the fear and anxiety. There are two forces battling for your brain! Your true self on one side and your fear and anxiety on the other side!! Your compulsive actions is just a tool in the battle. But your brain soon goes back to fear and anxiety because doing compulsive actions are just a temporary fix! You really need to battle the fear and anxiety!!
I can attest to you how hellish obsessive compulsive behavior is and how I am finally figured it out!! You must declare your true self and be proud of it and You must tell yourself that your stronger than the fear and anxiety! You must give yourself love because this makes you stronger! You must face the root cause of the fear and anxiety and somehow make peace within yourself about it.
I hope this helps for you and anyone that is reading this because as I am writing this I myself am reaching for the light at the end of the tunnel but at least I see the tunnel.
Was there anything you could remember that may have caused the habit? Are you zoning out when this happens?